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Hi, so I've been away for a while now. I hope you guys don't mind if I vent out a little just so I could get this out of my chest. I am not in a good head-space now. Online schooling has placed so much toll on my mental health that I am at the point where doing nothing after all my work is done feels wrong because I feel like I should be doing something. I'm constantly worrying whether or not it's worth it to push through with my schooling. It's so hard to function because of the constant stress of worrying and panic over the littlest things and it is just becoming too much from me.
It's so messed up because I genuinely want to finish school and study, and to write here on this app but my head just doesn't want to cooperate with me right now and everything just feels like its turning into heaps of mess. Fuck, I don't even know if I'm making sense right now if I'm being honest.
All of my work will be on hold for now. I don't know how long I'll be taking my leave but I feel like this is what will be best for me in the long run. I just need more time to recuperate, to really focus more on other things in my personal life. This time, I will really try and focus on myself more. To have less work and less stress.
I love writing, let it be by requests or my current book series, I love reading the comments and replying to those who message me but I don't think my hobbies and studies can be fit into my schedule. I thought that I could make it work somehow.
Take care everyone!