it’s been 6 months since my dad has passed. 6 months. Half a year. Nothing seems right anymore. So much has happened within this time. So many losses, so many achievements, so many memories. So many lessons. I want to say that I’ve been healing so well, but every time I began to feel okay, i end up having to restart. I don’t think you ever stop healing, and anyone whoever tells you that it gets better, it won’t. You just learn to deal with it better. They always say that he is always with you . But he’s not. He’s really not. He won’t get to see me graduate college, or walk me down the aisle, become a grandfather, grow old with my mom. He will never see any of my accomplishments that he always wanted to support and be proud of. Because he is not HERE. Grief, is a funny thing. You never stop. It follows you everywhere you go, the smallest things. With this being said, an update will come soon, it’s just getting pass my mental block. Just know, that if you’re healing, do what is right by you. Don’t let any one else take advantage of that. Healing is a process, and it can not be done if those around you are not being the right support you need in time. Not the ones making it worse In the end. Know that every moment is limited in your life, and that to say you love them every chance you get take your time and know that you’ll get through it even if it’s not at the pace others take. You are your own person and not everyone can live to the same expectations. Don’t let them step over you and your accomplishments. You are strong and it is okay to not be okay, accept that, move when you can. That is how you should see life itself❤️
