☆ Maddie ☆

I need Elektra Natchios fanfics rn 
          Can anyone help me out 

I won a month of premium but I don’t have the app :(

okay why did one of my friends say "I could never see you in a relationship" and the girl I like (the straight one WHO HAS A BOYFRIEND) literally went on this LONG tangent about how good of girlfriend I would be, super in depth, like she's thought put A LOT of thought into it before. even my other friends at the table were like "girl it seems you've REALLY imagined what it's be like to date her"
          
          oml I don't even know what to think

TOP 100 LISTENERS FOR RENEÉ RAPP ON APPLE MUSIC 
          
          2024 Apple Music Replay:
          188,764 minutes
          
          Top 5 Artists:
          Taylor Swift
          Reneé Rapp
          Billie Eilish
          Gracie Abrams
          Chappell Roan
          
          Top 5 Songs:
          In The Kitchen - Reneé Rapp
          Snow Angel - Reneé Rapp
          I Wish - Reneé Rapp
          Pretty Girls - Reneé Rapp
          WILDFLOWER - Billie Eilish

When the girl I really like is telling me about the guy that likes her but she doesn't reciprocate the feelings and doesn't know how to tell him and then she tells me about a second guy that likes her and she likes him back. And I say "you're pulling people left and right" (people cause it's not only guys cause of me even though she doesn't know that lol).
          
          And that was a bit painful... but at least she's my best friend :)

eventful weeks update:
          Week 1 - I had COVID and missed my last first football game.
          Week 2 - Eventful homecoming week.
          Week 3 - Friday was a _ hour day. My school was on the morning news, so I woke up at 3:15 a.m.. Then I went to school, had a football game that was 45 minutes away, performed at that game, got home at 12 a.m., showered and ate, and got in bed at 2 a.m.
          Week 4 - Got an upper respiratory infection and then a sinus infection, missed that whole week of school. Then got diagnosed with illness induced asthma. I also missed the Gracie Abrams concert (I sobbed that night).
          Week 5 - I still wasn't getting better, so we went back to the doctor. They misdiagnosed the illness induced asthma, it was actually pneumonia in the lower left lobe of my lung. Missed that entire week of school and my last first competition.
          Week 6 (this past week) - Literally dying coughing during rehearsals to the point where my band director called out from the top of the tower if I was okay. Made the hard decision to take myself out of the ballad (3 parts to a marching show: opener, ballad, and closer). Left the football game early and missed seeing our team beat the other team for the first time in 19  years. Performed during prelims at the marching competition on Saturday, we got most and moved on to finals. And then...
          WE WERE ANNOUNCED GRAND CHAMPIONS AT THE COMPETITION

Uh oh, I'm falling in love
          Oh no, I'm falling in love again
          Oh, I'm falling in love
          
          in love with my straight best friend, I’m absolutely and royally fucked…

currently crying
          Never Grow Up never fails to make me cry cause it’s hits really close to home
          mashed up with Robin makes it even worse
          
          for once I’m glad I’m not hearing it in person cause I would be curled up on the floor bawling

my search history rn:
          "how to write poetry"
          "types of poetry"
          "how to start writing poetry"
          
          I hate writing/english, but I want to learn how to write poetry so bad

my toxic trait is reading the last 5-15 chapters of a fic if I don't want to make the commitment and read the whole thing (cause it's only mildly interesting or is too long)