AwesomeScarlett
Hey wassupp, it's been long so i decided to drop by. Hmu
minshugachan
minshugachan
Acting like i was so strong like the stupid thing i am.
AwesomeScarlett
@minshugachan i don't think you are stupid, and if u are, then all of us is too. We are all stupid somewhere. And as for strong, you are definitely strong, pushing till here, u r one hundred percent strong
minshugachan
You cant force someone who are dead inside to stay alive.
AwesomeScarlett
@minshugachan yes we can't, but probably we can make them to think twice about them trying to revive themselves from inside :-] Things are never over...
minshugachan
Guys today is my birthday!19 Oct! ^^
Msjokeswhore
@minshugachan Your birthday is coming up soon! I’m a bit early so HAPPY (early) BIRTHDAY!
minshugachan
I am actually planning a whole new book coming soon as I'm actually putting the real effort in the story line and character development by making notes. I will make sure I finish the whole plotting so I have the actual ending and finish the book. I'm starting back with my writing soon. It might be a little different from before since I had stop for nearly 2 years. But I hope it will meet your expectation! ^^
YanaYato
@minshugachan Yes ☆_☆ I am ao excited .. I love your writing .you're so talented ♡ hope you are okay ♡ take care
minshugachan
My parents said they are fine with everything even if I didnt make it into the university. They are fine as long as I'm happy and I'm healthy. They remind me that I didnt disappoint them at all. But why does I feel even bad about my life? It feels like I am a huge disappointment and burden for them. I dont know what to do with my life and i dont want to burden them without any income. But i get sick when i works. It almost feels like i cant do anything to be a great daughter for them but they are not even mad. They are too nice for such a disappointment like me. I feels like killing myself even more.
AwesomeScarlett
@minshugachan hey hi U probably don't remember me, but we talked in dms I'm sure ur parents don't think of u as disappointing, u dont have to be a great daughter right at the moment. U have lots of time on ur hands and lots of things left to do, so dont hurry. Things will work out eventually, and u have to take baby steps at the moment. Ur parents love u, and lots of many other people too. U r not a disappointment.
minshugachan
It's amazing how i came to the point that i pretend im doing so well but nobody knew how hard i cried at night. I feels so sorry for being a burden for everyone that I cant even show them how mentally unstable am i. My chest hurt from trying to surpress my cries. Everything hurt. God im so tired of this. Im so tired of nothing ever working out in my life. I really want to end this. I really dont want to do this anymore.
soojinnayee
words won't help, and neither does the presence of someone that's not physically there. i can't say anything from here, and i can't hold you to comfort you either, so please, reach out to someone. it sucks so much to be sitting from behind the screen, watching you post these messages WITHOUT knowing how to help. please, i love you so much, tell me what i can help, i'll try my best. reach out to someone who is there, please, i love you sweet bun.
minshugachan
I actually wrote a new story... But im too insecure to post it. Idk if i should? But it is still not completed tho...
soojinnayee
@minshugachan - heyy you're back! we've missed you ): and yeah, you should go for it if you feel like it ((: we wouldnt mind waiting for updates
minshugachan
I dont think i will ever be happy anymore.
minshugachan
I'm always such a disappointment to everyone. I'm so sorry for existing. ')
