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honestly i don't know what to do, i really don't want to be alive, i just want to be asleep forever, i would do anything to just die, i don't know what's happening to me, i don't know how it even got like this. nobody will ever love me im so annoying and i've done so much bad stuff, i literally am so fucking annoying and i fucked up and the only person i had was him and now i've put myself in such an awful state. i actually hope that someone cares to read this before it's too late cuz i'm scared and nobody care about me. I'm scared to be alive but i can't do it because everything is hidden now. and when im walking around school i have no friends anymore, i just walk around alone and its so depressing because i see everyone with their friends and honestly it really upsets me how hes always talking shit about me and telling everyone things that we did and wouldn't tril anyone but i deserve it and the only reason he loved me was just so he could get pics. nobody even likes me and ive done awful awful things that are unforgivable and nobody believes me when i say im sorry because nobody likes me.