minteyes-

/ anyways lol um cb or something

-L0st_Time-

@minteyes- 
          	  I missed our bbys <33
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minteyes-

/ don’t mind this small vent hehe
          
          
          i’m reaallyy tired. of everything. i know that’s common and it doesn’t make me any special, but i’m tired of always hearing my mom complaining about me. i don’t know how to describe what i’m feeling. i know this isn’t an app for therapy, i just like the thought of someone possibly seeing this. and sure, they might not say anything, but it feels nice to be seen. i’m tired of so much. i’m tired of always trying and being met with failure and regret every single time. it’s a constant cycle where i always end up feeling guilty and bad about myself. and i can’t tell anyone else this because i’m a burden, and they said so themselves. i don’t know what to do with myself anymore, i just need a lot of this to pause or just stop entirely

--gogodancerz

/*words
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--gogodancerz

@minteyes- 
            /hey I feel you.
            The way I try to deal with it is peoples works go through one ear and out the other.
            Its no reason to feel guilty or bad about yourself if you tried your best with whatever you do-
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nekomber

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/  I WAS THINKING OF SOMETHING 
          RELATED TO THEM NOT TALKING
          IN A WHILE :>
          
          the female sat there  ,,   lost in her own thoughts as she missed the presence of a certain person. the meadow filled with flowers had become her company since then.
          
          she plucked another petal of poppy flower, rather angrily as she remembered promising ray she wouldn’t ever leave him, yet the complete opposite happened.
          
          “ why why why..” she mumbled to herself, finally letting go of the stem of the remaining flower.
          
          “ ray if you can hear me. im going to kill you if I ever see you again. why’d you have to leave me..” obviously she wasn’t going to kill the other, yet that’s the only way she found to express her anger there at the present moment.

minteyes-

@NYANFEI 
            
            “i’m- i’m not giving excuses- i.. i’m not..” he couldn’t help but grab her hands, holding them tightly. he needed.. real, human support. he couldn’t just do all of this alone..
            
            “.. i- i wanted to do this- but.. i didn’t deserve it.. i- i didn’t deserve to be happy with- with you..” he wanted to keep her hands close.. but he found himself pushing them away, still thinking he didn’t deserve it.
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nekomber

@minteyes- 
            
            “ ray.. look at me. the mix emotions you’re giving at the moment, are unexplainable. what do you think hurts more? the not speaking to person I love for.. who know how much time, or just hearing excuses from you?” she spoke, finally letting go of his hand.
            “ a - and why are / you / crying..? You must feel so proud of yourself right now , don’t you.. you could’ve just told me that you couldn’t do this.. ray.” at last, she broke down into tears and brought her hands up to cup his cheek.
            
            “ w - what were the coincidences of finding you here too..”
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minteyes-

@NYANFEI 
            
            it didn’t take long for tears to flow out of his eyes. he didn’t want her to be angry with him.. that was the last thing he wanted, but he found himself thinking he deserved it. 
            
            “i- i didn’t.. i didn’t deserve you- you’re so kind, and- strong-willed.. i didn’t deserve your kindness..” ray knew that reason was idiotic, but he didn’t want her to be angry, even if he did think it was the punishment he deserved.
            
            “i haven’t.. been working hard, i- i didn’t deserve to be around you.. i’ve been- procrastinating..” he muttered softly, trying so desperately hard not to meet her gaze, afraid of seeing an angry, or even disappointed, look.
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