Baby , I can't sleep . I can't . I don't know why . I feel anxious , screwed up , sad , wanna cry and I don't know the reason . Baby , I want to hug you . I want to sleep in your hug . That is the safest place for me and it makes me feel calm .
Baby , why I can't sleep ? It's really dark here . I'm scared . I'm really tired and I just wanna sleep . But, I don't know why I can't sleep .
I don't know what to do except start to cry . You know, right ? That I'm really afraid with darkness and being alone . But, that is the situation where I'm at now .
Baby , sleep well please .. I don't want you to suffer like me .
I don't know what happened to myself . I start to lost interest in kpop life . I'm really sad that I don't know what to do to make myself happy and calm . I need you .. really need you . I need a whole day with you . Starting from morning until I close my eyes in your warm hug .
I miss the feeling of fangirling . But , why the feeling go away far from me ?
Depression ? Is this you ?
I'm really tired . I wanna sleep . I wanna so much . Sleep is my life . But , I just can't sleep . It didn't mean that I don't want to sleep .
Tomorrow , all the family members will said , "You stay up all the night , and you sleep during all the day." And bla bla bla . They don't know what I'm facing and feeling right now . They just know to scold me .
Hey baby .. your life not worse like me , right ?
I think I need to rent a cave and I want to stay there . Haisshhh I'm starting to merapu now . HAHAHAHAHAHA stress makes me crazy .
I don't want to self-harm anymore .
I want a happy life .
I want to love myself .
But now , I'm afraid of myself .
I can make myself bleeding anytime .
Am I crazy ?
No..
I'm just a psycho girl with triple and above personalities .
You already know it , right ?
That's why I can't live without you coz you're the only one that understand and know my darkside .
