i feel like i focus on other people’s eating problems so much and i encourage them to eat because it’s something that was never said to me. i know you guys are only interested in my writing but i truly wish that we can all get to know each other.
right now i want to speak about my eating disorder.
i’m 15 years old and i’ve had my eating disorder since i was 10. my parents started fighting and i didn’t want to eat anymore. i never had an appetite. when i was 11 they split and i fell into depression. i was 12 when i started eating too much and that was another eating disorder. i felt ashamed and fat, and i was only 105lbs. by 13 i was 101lbs and i barely ate. i then started to binge eat and at 14 my weight scaled from 110-125lbs. i’m 15 right now and i’m back and forth. i don’t eat one day and i can’t stop eating the next. i’m ashamed to say it, but this is my breakthrough and i think i should.
i am one hundred and nineteen pounds. half a pound overweight with a bmi of 23.2.
i think that making this post was necessary. i need to heal but how can i heal if i’m keeping something in?
i also want you guys to realize that we all have our struggles. we all have our battles. it shouldn’t be normalized, but it’s common. i made this post to share some vulnerability with you guys and i want you to realize that i am human just like you. i also want you to know that you can always speak to me, and i promise i will reply.
when i say i love you, i truly mean it. i love every single one of you.