Mira

I am deeply sorry. My life had no matter, and I couldn't live with the pain I caused to others. Everyone who got a part of it, I am sorry. Thank you for everyone who supported me when I still wrote. Goodbye.

"You promised. You swore. You swore you wouldn't leave me. That you wouldn't leave me alone into this darkness. What happened to that promise? Did I do something? Was I the one again who messed everything up? Or did you dare to give up? You knew. You knew how fucking much this would hurt. You knew how much this would hurt us all. And you dared to ask for our forgiveness. You hurt me. Worse than anyone ever. And I want you to know that. Because no, I'm not going to forgive you. I can't. You took away the last spark in me. And I'm not sure if I can light it again. Like a match, burned to the end. I do not know that it will take for the match to crumble into ashes. The spark will die, slowly burn, mutedly away. And some morning you wake up, only to find the match in pieces. And then I'll see you again. With your fucking perfect smile. And I'll cry. And I will blame this all on you. Because you were the one to light the hope, and you were the one to turn it off. You gave up. You gave up even though you promised. So why shouldn't I follow you? Your house will be empty, a stranger walking around it. Playing on the floors we used to play, walking down the hallways we used to run. You left. And I'm not going to forgive you. Never."
          
          6.8.1997~4.8.2018 
          ❤

Hey everyone. 
          
          So, some of you've might noticed the switches in my actions, activity and basically in everything. And I'm not sure why I'm doing this.
          There are days when I just basically don't have energy to do anything. I won't eat, drink, sleep or move. I'll just stay in the same spot for hours and hours. Yes, I've been hospitalized because of that many times. Just because I've been unmoving for too long. Then there are days when life feels easy. Like it's all okay. I'm full of energy, writing and being socially active all day. Then there are days, when I move and go through it piece by piece. Forcing myself to be around people, to be normal and okay. By now you've probably understood that something isn't right. But my diagnoses aren't the point of this message. It's about explaining my constantly changing moods. 
          
          There are days when it doesn't hurt. When it doesn't control me all day, and I feel like I'm able to live this life. But then there is that one moment that pushes everything back on me, and it simply crashes. 
          
          For all those that hate me, I actually understand you. Because there are moments I hate myself too, more than anything or anyone else. I just want things to get normal. I don't know what future is for me, but I do hope that this gets better. I'm going to save your time for my more dark thoughts and actions, just because you don't probably give a shit. And yes, I am aware that this message is full of grammar mistakes, but I don't give a fuck. It's 2 AM right now, and my brain isn't working with me. 
          
          So there's some of reasons why I'm what I am. I highly doubt that anyone cares about this, but at least now you know why I am so moody. And to anyone else who is having these kind of things, please remember that this is suppose to get better. I'm not saying it will, because right now I have no proof of it. And I'm sorry, if you feel as shit as I, because it sucks. It sucks a lot. 
          
          Thank you for reading this. 
          
          Bye for now.

Okay, so I decided to update my schelude.
          
          They Eye Of The Storm will be updated 4 times a week!
          Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays and Sundays
          
          

@Hetalitale you're welcome! :3

Thank you for 500 reads! It's awesome how people actually read my shitty stories. But thank you so much! :3

Sunday's update was late! Sorry! I didn't sleep for 49 hours so I was a bit messy xD

Okay, now I'm dead. I don't know what happened but my heart died. Simply, I woke up and realized, "Hey, I gotta new follower" but when I went to see...@Entertadpole THANK you so much! I can't believe this is happening and I feel like I'm fan girling all the time now. How am I suppose to live normally anymore xD.

Okay, no one panick. The one and only @SinpaiCasanova, the goddess of writing, and one of the purest human beings followed me. I'm gonna cry into a corner. Tears of happiness Cassi, don't worry :3 But thank you SO much. I adore you to the stars and you deserve the best lovey.

So, the schelude for "The Eye Of The Storm" is going to be a bit messy at first but I try to catch it. I'm excited about the story, and I hope people will like it. 
          
          The updating days will be Wednesdays and Sundays. Then I'll have time for special thingys :3