NEW ACCOUNT:

anyone wanna talk? (yes im coming back to my old account to post this because i am bored and lonely and kind of want to create some characters)

remember that my NEW and ACTIVE account is @snakepaper

ANYONE STILL FOLLOWING ME / STARTING TO FOLLOW ME: i will not return to this account, you will now find me at @snakepaper

before i leave, i would like to thank everybody who got me through this year. @viIIanuevas / @cookiesIyon, @acosmic, @ultjongin, @confusedfreya. thank you so much. you have no idea how much you mean to me.

it has been three years since i have come onto this website and started writing very shitty fanfiction. i have made many friends and learned a lot while i was here, and, to be quite honest, grew into the person i am today. 
          
          now, three years later, i have decided that it would be time to give this account up. because as much as i loved this experience, i hated it.
          i hated the fights and hate, losing friends and trying so hard to make new ones, i hated how much pressure i have been putting myself under. maybe i even hated myself.
          
          a few months ago, i broke. 
          and i mean the kind of broken where my parents made an appointment with a psychologist. where, after a few tests and appointments, the health insurance company decided to pay for my therapy. that kind of broken. 
          
          and maybe i am able to fix this, with a lot of help from my therapist, parents and friends like @acosmic, but not with this account. because i have decided that this is it, this is the sacrifice im making for a new, better me. i don't want to forget the past, but i want to finally let this go.
          
          (part 1)
           
          
          

but i can't just go. i can't just let go of my friends. i have never finished a story. 
          
          so yes, i have decided to leave this account, of which i can't even remember the first username, and hopefully start new on my second account @neustarts. 
          
          feel free to follow, but lower any expectations you may have. there won't be any regular updates or new stories or anything of that. 
          on this new account, i will no longer try to impress or please anyone, no longer pressure myself into doing something i don't enjoy. i refuse to break again. 
          
          if you don't want to accompany me on this journey, that is fine. you probably came for the percy jackson and harry potter stories, the tales of game of thrones or star wars princesses, superhero and supervillains and maybe even for a social media fanfiction or two, you probably didn't come for a problematic, mentally ill teenager to be asking if anyone cares about her. you probably didn't come for someone who relies on the validation from others. i'm sorry for disappointing anyone who didn't get what they thought they came for. 
          
          what do they say? new year, new me? 
          i will still be myself by the time its midnight here, but i will truly be myself. no altering of character to please others. no hiding to avoid drama. just me.
          
          goodbye, i guess. or hello. i don't know
          
          [part 2]

it couldve been me. 
          

im thinking of moving accounts. creating a new one. this one feels jinxed.

guys happy first advent to everyone celebrating!

ALSO @ultjongin I PROBABLY WONT EVER GET INTO KPOP IM SORRY BUT ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN ANY TIME SOON BUT I REALLY MISS YOU SO PLEASE BITCH STOP