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First of all sorry in advance for this long post, but I really want to let this out of my mind because no one's there for me to listen to my worries.
I really want to quit my coaching class. Eventhough my vacations have started, but the class lengths are so long and I had also missed some of the important classes due to my exams that it's getting unbearable for me to keep up with the lectures. Yes, at first it was because of my will my mom paid for the admission. But I had told her to not pay the cash in full amount thinking if I ever had the thought about quitting it then the whole money won't go wasted. But guess what, she paid in full amount. At first it was fine for me to listen to the classes. Then as time passed, it was getting difficult for me to keep it up with my school studies. Now, during my vacation time, I have to watch the classes that I had missed. And honestly it's getting fucking tiring. The long continues lectures... I'm not able to keep up with it. I thought these classes will benefit my 12th grade, but my guess was wrong as the syllabus is really different and way more advanced. But I still attended the classes at that time, managed to write the weekly examinations without complaining. Yesterday, I told my mom that I wanted to quit the coaching and she got furious. I really can't progress the classes anymore as it's getting complex. I explained to her my reason but she twisted my words saying that I don't work hard and that I'm not interested in studying anymore. Like, when did I even said that? I managed both my school and coaching schedules without complaining, and at that time no one in family ever asked me if I was doing well or if it manageable for me to keep up the classes. Literally, no one asked me that. Instead, she just nag at me all the time, saying that I don't have any aim or that I'm too lazy to take risk. If I my marks are low then it's my fault but if my marks are excellent, then it's all because of God's work.