bellea ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

My life rly just be Everytine by Britney spears </3 

i need him i need him i need him :(

nothing like reading a vampire love fic srsly. it’s sparked a new era in me. no one else could understand 

grief is crazy  yall i can feel myself slowly healing. happy late one year anniversary  i’ll miss you for evs 

yall ik no one reads ts so ima just splurge a condensed version of my emotions for the past 3 days. as prior knowledge, ive only ever thought my mom and dad were each others first marriages. but my cousin told my something on my birthday. i already had a feeling but it was fully confirmed. my dad was marriaged before my mama. not only that, but they had a kid together. but sadly like my dads coworker who is poor wanted to rob but instead ****** them. in their home and my dad saw it and like i read articles and stuff from 04 and it’s surreal i can’t look at him the same i just feel waves of endless empathy cuz no one should ever go thru that and like its terrible because like im mourning someone i never met but i know if she was alive i wouldn’t be. im going insane. 

i’m 18 <3

i’m eighteen in two days my life is slipping away 

i am eighteen in four days and no one has ever loved me time is slipping away and i feel like i have lost my chances 

sometimes i feel like i don’t even know myself and neither do my friends 

six days until eighteen