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so i will just come straight to the point, am i going to write again? maybe, maybe not, i do have ideas but 19 year old me lacks the patience to write which 13 year old me had, and im also aware how insane this sounds coming from a literature student, but that's just how it is. ive been busy with lots of other stuff so i will see if i will write, it might just happen that i start writing and just drop it in between so yea :')
now i will come to why i was inactive for so long. long story short, i was being harassed online at one point of time (ny mistake was downloading discord). something i said was misinterpreted and inflated to make me look wrong and dragged to a great extent too. i will not explain what because it doesn't make sense to mingle with something that happened some years back, but this incident just made me constantly anxious. i was 15 and i didn't know how to deal with it or whom to talk to, and i was emotionally attached to this account and scared of it being reported and subsequent deletion, leading to all my works being gone. so what did i do? i deactivated it and ran away. My account stayed deactivated for a long time, before I decided to reactivate it and keep my douma fanfic published because it was the only complete piece, and unpublished the rest. then i just disappeared from the platform, for my own peace. my friends encouraged me to republish my works, but i myself was cringed out at my writing style, so i decided to republish my muzan fic only and leave the rest. am i gonna complete it? nope.
tbh that's about it, i tried writing on tumblr for a while but i lost access to that account and just distanced myself from writing. dw, im still that active in the demon slayer fandom like i was back then, so i might be writing stuff, but again, i probably will never be that active here ever again.
