Hi, it's been a while and I have come to the decision to put all my stories on hold. My father, which is one of my inspirations why I started writing, passed away last 27th of April, and today, inilibing na siya, which is called huling hantungan. I sincerely appreciate your condolences and sympathies.
I hope na someday in the future, mawala ang sakit ng pagluluksa ng buong family namin lalo na si Mama. She did not and cannot witness my father's last moment in the flesh while he was alive at nakabalik lang siya ng Pilipinas no'ng nakahiga na siya panghabang-buhay sa isang ataul.
I was really looking away kasi ayokong ipakitang nanghihina ako kay Mama. Kami na lang 'yung sasandalan niya kasi ni hindi man lang niya nakita si Papa na nakahiga sa hospital bed, pero in a way, I was relieved kasi kung nakita niya, sigurado akong iiyak siya ng iiyak. I'm brave, I'm tough, pero when it comes to my family, sobrang hina ko. Napakababaw ng luha ko. I don't want them to see me breaking kasi alam kong mas doble ang epekto non sa kanila. They know na ako yung malakas ang loob, they know na kakayanin ko, pero No. I'm also his daughter, babae rin ako. Ako yung unang anak na babae. Papa's girl din ako. Dumadating pa nga ako sa point na hinihiling ko na if this is a dream, I'm begging you, someone, and I mean someone, please wake me up.
It was so sudden that although I know it's hard, and I know that Earth will be a little hard to handle without you, I know
And I know that we will carry on. I hope I do. I hope we all do.
I beg You, please take care of my father there for my sake.
I miss you already.
Love,
@mjcbel
