@mjloverxx im so happy he was here at some point. i havent been crying when his anniversary comes for the past few years and i dont know why. maybe its my brain that dissasociates himself from being real. even though there's proof he existed, ive only seen him through the eyes of a camera lense. nothing more. sometimes he feels like a tragic written character. the days i feel really in tune with him and who he was, is when i get on such a high and peak but then i fall down real quick because i cant express that love any further than my aching heart reaching and not touching anything, and i KNOW that he died and doesnt exist physically anymore.