Self inflicted wounds I've burned into my mind
And I can't separate the truth from all the lies
And all the work I've done, it all just goes to waste
'Cause I have one bad day, and I lose it again
New crush, high school love again
The rush of slumber party kissing
Don't touch, I'll never cross the line
So I pushed you down a million times
I'd love if you knew you were on my mind
I'm the best thing at this party
(You're losin' me)
And I wouldn't marry me either
A pathological people pleaser
Who only wanted you to see her
And I'm fadin', thinkin'
I've always felt tiny beneath the validation
Maybe I should lower my expectations
I've forgotten who I am
Was eyeing on a scam
How do I end up in these situations
All my life I've wanted more, but the lows are getting real high
Well, wouldn't that be the life?
I would drink away my problems with some poison in a can