Today, I was really tired because I walked for hours. I did it to punish myself and the people around me. I'm useless. At that time I feel so hopeless and tired. I'm tired of everything that I do. I'm tired of trying to understand the people around me.
I'm tired of everything.
At the 7/11 store I saw a bottle that was broken into pieces and I just thought how about I slice my pulse to end me, but I didn't do it cuz I remembered my father and my mother. They love me. I saw my father's face looking at me so proudly and my mom too. They're both looking at me with adoration in their eyes. I dunno why I felt like crying at that time but their is no tears left to cry.
This is the day I never cried. Usually, if I'm kinda like mad at myself, I always started to tear up even tho I don't.
I always find myself weird. I cry when their is no moment that makes me cry but when I'm sad and stressed I always end up not tearing up.
Well, I never slept. Maybe, I'll sleep later when I get home.
Hi, I am selfish. I only think of myself and not the others. I am sadistic and useless. I'm not so proud of that but I think I'm kinda like rude too because I dunno.
I'm trash.
-mmmyxmmy
