Hey, I'm just gonna throw a few words at you, and please if you have the time check it out, it might be beneficial.
Today was one of the hardest days in my life, it's quit odd how life works, one minute we were all laughing, and then it only took 5 seconds to flip the WHOLE day and make it the worst.
I wish I could erase what I had seen, and what I heard, but I can't and that's unfortunate. And trust me when I say loosing in life is just like stumbling over a rock, the real fall? Is when you lose SOMEONE in life, I almost lost a precious person today, and if I did, I know that the only thing I would've remembered is the scene I want to erase from my mind. Keep your loved ones close, I know life is just a repeating cycle, and death is important, yet we still have a fear, a fear of loosing them, so seize every moment you have with them whoever they are. Today I had to try and calm the kids in my family, because everything was chaotic, we nearly lost a life, and it's hard when you can't answer questions you don't even know the answer of, I don't even know how my 3 yo cousin knows about death, but she did ask this "did grandpa die?", I literally froze, I didn't know the answer myself, but I still said no, and she demanded to meet him right away, "then let me see him" she said, I could only say he was asleep.
I don't know what I'm saying this, but I wish I will never see that again, and the worst part is being blamed for something related to it, and your mother cussing you and saying she will kill you, even though she apologized and said it was 'because of the heat of the moment', it still hurt, because she blamed me, and now I do.
Just hold them tighter tonight, tell them you love them, and tell them you're sorry if you ever did something wrong, because you never know when it's time.
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