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i know no one rlly cares about my account anymore which is fine I don’t really update my stories simply because I lost interest in them and don’t really even feel a connection to them anymore. I’m currently writing on a different account and it’s different fandoms just because I’ve grown more motivation to write them rather than joshler —so yeah idk what I want to do necessarily with this account because I wanna keep the stories up for those who enjoy them and the account does mean a lot to me sentimentally so idk that’s all thanks for listening <3

the fact that I wrote dyslexia as a freshman in high school now I’m a freshman in college...wild...

also sorry for typos new phone but you get the point hopefully 

I understand a lot are hurt and i am too it wasn’t just the sexual assault allegations that made me
          dislike him and I apologize for coming off a bit inconsiderate but I still dislike him. I don’t wish bad things upon someone especially not him because he was once one of my idols however it’s hard. I know the allegations aren’t proven and I hope they aren’t true. I understand brendon has helped so much people and I know because he helped me
          as well and If you have good memories regarding him keep them. Once more is said I’ll say more until then I’m gonna officially paused the books that have him. I will be writing on a Separate account but I’ll check in. Again sorry if I came
          Across as angry because I was but I’m in a better mindset to address it . Any questions feel free to ask or dm me and yeah stay safe y’all I love y’all <3 

it hurts to see someone you’ve adored since you were young be shown for who they really are. brendon urie is a piece of shit (so is zack hall) and for that reason I won’t be having them in any future stories (if I ever post another / continue the ones I have) I’m not sure which one of my books have brendon in it considering most of them I’ve written nearly four years ago but if you know which ones he’s in I will take the time to go in and edit him out or try to get some help doing so. I’ll talk more soon but just needed to get that out. 

a boy just asked me to church on Sunday....god my catholic parents r gonna love this 

10 years of one direction makes my heart go <<<<<<<<3333333

Me watching the cryptic tøp stuff happening while writing the new fic is bringing me back to hiatus days 

uh would y’all be cool if a new story I was working on had dom/sub tone to it,, 

god trying to figure out how you feel about yourself is so draining