mocchvi
i just logged in wattpad and guess what? one of my fic which i worked hard on vanished, just like that :((( the main character was heeseung too..
mocchvi
mocchvi
i love every enhypen members, they're all very dear to me. it feels incomplete now that one of them just, vanished.
even my header is heehoon lol
still thinking about how should i cope with this situation? this is such a struggle, I truly didn't expect that it would affect me this much
mocchvi
it's been eight days since the announcement was posted.
honestly, it still feels unreal to me — an engene since i-land. i watched as these seven individuals debuted with their own efforts and patience, and it pains me when heeseung 'left' the group. people may call me stupid for still being in 'denial'. honestly, with how things are being escalated in hybe, i find it hard to believe.
it's been a week, yet there's no announcement regarding the progress about his solo debut. in fact, other official accounts shamelessly uploaded merchandise and collaborations still ft heeseung. he already bought the ticket to Australia, but now it's cancelled — the last minute change in the choreos? it doesn't add up at all.
it pains me whenever i open twitter — more 'engenes' are turning into an ot6. it would be slightly acceptable if they were to support his 'decision' to be a solo artist, but the only words came out? pure hatred, insults and resentment, as if these people have been holding it in for long. purposely spreading rumours about how the members hate heeseung?
grief, is real. my friends may find it ridiculous, at how i am still grieving over his departure. somehow, it slightly lessened my motivation to continue studying in the college (the parasocial is catching up to me..). the funniest thing is, I couldn't even watch those ship videos anymore. the thought of them rarely interacting from now on would be considered self harm to me (as it is damaging my own mental health).
i still find myself tearing up whenever I'm alone. at the rip age of 19, crying over a grown man. how funny is that?
mocchvi
@eroticrosesitaly thank you for your kind words :') let's stay strong through all of this together and take care as well!!!
eroticrosesitaly
@mocchvi It's ok I can understand my situation has been the same since the announcement but let's just not give up and i hope Heeseung is doing fine and rest of them too You don't have to feel burdened about your feelings because my life has been same since then i hope you stay strong and continue supporting him Take care and let's manifest together for him to comeback
mocchvi
@mocchvi it's even harder for me to vent out my feelings regarding this entire situation, as there isn't anyone out there (irl) sharing the same sentiments i have. i probably would look so silly and stupid if i were to cry about it out loud in front of them. while it is true that i am a hoonjaywon biased, all seven of them mattered to me. they're like, the huge siblings/friend circle i never had (this MIGHT be parasocial in a platonic way, guys).