moderatelytroubled

i know i don't have very much engagement on this platform anymore, but i posted this on tumblr today and it only seems fair to post it here as well: 
          
          the measure of man is going to be the last fic i post for a while. i’m not willing to state that i’m retiring entirely from writing fic, because it is so engrained, i’ve been writing fic across fandoms for almost a decade, so i’m sure that at some point i’ll be back— either with something to post for this fandom or another one, but for the time being i need to take a step back and focus on other writing endeavors. i was going to wait to make this statement when i was done with the measure of man, but it felt insincere to continue posting every week without letting y’all know what’s on the horizon.
          
          i’m sure there will be some question as to why i’m stepping away now, and to be honest there’s no chief reason or situation that caused me to make this decision. i think we all find this fandom rather exhausting, and in the past few months there has been a rather large influx of behaviors by readers of fic that i find extremely problematic and discouraging, but to be honest i think i just feel like i’ve run my course in this fandom. i’m proud of what i’ve written here and i’ve enjoyed getting to know so many of you, but engagement has been on a steady decline for the past six months or so and the last thing i want to do is overstay my welcome or persist in writing things that are no longer challenging or fulfilling to me. 
          
          writing is something i will always be doing in some form, whether that be fic or poetry or novels or memoirs, and at this time i want to switch my focus back to poetry and novels. if you’d like to connect with me on other platforms i’m saralovesgiants across most social media and unrewardingmessages8 on discord.
          
          let’s enjoy one last ride together with the measure of man before i float away from fandom for a while.
          
          sending you all my love 
          
          sara <3

i obviously never quit publishing Mercy on here-- but after this story is over and i turn my focus to Fate Forgone Virtue, i will be publishing exclusively on AO3. that story is DEFINITELY not wattpad speed, so i will be keeping FFV hidden to only those who have an AO3 account. my apologies to anyone who has been reading my stories for a while, but this site is a pain to navigate. i promise i'm not actually going anywhere, you can find me on AO3 and tumblr.

Hey friends—
          
          I’m starting to think Mercy for Those Seeking isn’t Wattpad speed, so I may just stick to posting it on AO3, because it is a lot of work to cross post and it doesn’t seem like the story is getting much traction here. I’ve been updating every Monday, so if you are reading it and don’t see an update next week, my username on AO3 is the same as here. 

i hope you all are having a warm, happy holiday season. i’ll be back soon to finish the human condition and start a couple new fics. i just needed some rest after finishing nlto. it was very emotionally exhausting and i feel like i need a little brain reset before i start focusing on something else. i love you all.
          
           sara

i’ve officially taken Then Came You down. Message me on tumblr (metaphoricgibberish) or twitter (saralovesgiants) if you want the shared doc.

today please i can’t wait!!

do ya'll want the next chapter of nlto later today or do you want to bask in the unknown for a while and get it next week with everyone else?

I’m loving this story, don’t feel like u need to say sorry about how the story is going so far, as much as this point in the book is killing me  I’m loving it because I know it’s building to something and I think that’s what makes you such a good writer 

this is literally one of the best ongoing fics i’m reading rn, please don’t apologise. I literally can’t wait to read the next chapter, the characters are so well written and the story is brilliant!

i was gonna wait to post this until the next chapter of nlto, but some of the comments i’ve gotten (here and elsewhere) have made me sad and so here we are. I know y'all are mad at me about caleb, but something BIG needed to happen to snap joel out of his bullshit. and this is going to hurt lily, but it is a mirror to what happened to joel with sarah. it'll help them better understand each other. 
          
          i’ve apologized (and over explained) a lot about the angst in this fic (most of my fics tbh) and i’m a little sick of it. i feel like i post the necessary warnings (it’s harder to do on here as it is on AO3 with the lack of tags) and i wish people headed those warnings and read accordingly. if you can’t handle plot or angst and you just want fluffy smut, please go read one of the thousand one-shots that will give you just that. that will NEVER be what i write. no hard feelings. i’d rather you read what you’re looking for than read my fics and complain about the plot. it’s one thing to be upset, i get that, but when the comments are overwhelmingly negative it makes me angry to be completely honest. i’ve been drafting and writing this fic for a year. i have carved my heart open creating it and it feels like sh!t when half of all the comments are some version of “i just want them to be happy, when will this end, just give me their happy ending now.” no. i’m not going to do that. that would be a disservice to the plot, to the characters i love. if that’s what you want, i’m not the writer for you. life is not without turmoil, and neither will my stories. if you just want a caricature of joel that completely mischaracterizes him as some emotionally-intelligent, perfect man, then i can guarantee there are a thousand fics out there for you. but i love his character too much to disservice him like that.