hey. so its kind of funny how every time something happens that f!cking sucks i find myself back here but hey guys! i miss writing and this is my only true outlet anymore. im hoping to post some more stuff. some sad, some happy. i dont know if this even means anything to any of u anymore but hey, im here. even if it is a year later. if its good let me know. if its bad let me know. im trying and sometimes its hard but this is how im going to try and process my trauma i guess. whatever this is already so long but hey...again