hey, I read your description you shouldn't care what people think of you only what you think of you. It's your life you shouldn't let other people run your life for you because it's yours only yours and your top dog your the leader in charge and alpha. I used to listen to what people said just before summer holiday I still was but now I'm top dog you would hardly recognize me I'm still kinda shy but hey I'm breaking through my life MINE just like yours is yours think about it don't be a push around and I just know your beautiful and unique ... <3 ...