𝐌.𝐙 — hiatus

Y’all I’m an adult now help

I'm slowly coming back y'all 

Sometimes I miss him but then I remember if he really wanted to stay friends he wouldn't have blamed it all on me

Someone take sleep token away from me I'm obsessed 

Uhm hi I'm actually still alive

Working in the hospital means you're sick every week btw

Hallo. So richtig weiß ich gar nicht, wie ich das ganze hier anfangen soll, ohne mit der Tür ins Haus zu fallen. Erst einmal: Mir geht es soweit gut. Jedoch habe ich seit mehreren Monaten mit dem Schreiben aufgehört. Das hat viele Gründe, aber vor allem liegt es an einer großen Schreibblockade, die ich ca. aller zwei Jahre habe. Danach entwickelt sich mein Schreibstil weiter und ich werde hoffentlich wieder normal posten.
          Jetzt zu den unschönen Dingen. Vor ein paar Wochen ist meine Oma gestorben. Es war vorher zu sehen, aber trotzdem hab ich das ganze immer noch nicht realisiert. Ich habe diese letzten 3 Monate auch viele Menschen aus meinem Leben ausgeschlossen, die mir nicht gut tun. Darunter auch jemanden, der mich gegroomt hat. Und meinen Ex, der mich angelogen und betrogen hat. Ich habe neue Freunde gefunden und werde bald mit arbeiten anfangen. 
          
          Stay safe everyone 
          
          Loki

I'm also sorry for not answering any comments or other things not only have I been busy but I'm currently also experiencing a writers block and the situation with my grandma is almost at it's worst. I'm thankful for everyone but I need time for everything and I don't feel stable enough to be on here and write books about sensitive topics.

TW: mentions of suicide for a brief moment, could be triggering and upsetting but I'm done with so much bullshit
          
          Guys if you're gonna vent at least put a trigger warning. I don't wanna open Tiktok, WhatsApp or Wattpad to see a literal description on how you tried to off yourself. Your feelings are valid but the way you communicate them is not. Not everyone is in a good place and there are younger people too. Even if you're not okay you shouldn't drag others down with you. Get yourself the help you deserve and if you don't want it that's on you. But going around on apps crying about how bad you feel and venting to others without permission and out of the blue is insensitive and weird. And if you get mad at people for not wanting to hear about your problems then I got some news for you, you're not the victim here. People have the right to refuse to listen to your endless fucking bullshit that you aren't changing even tho they've tried countless of times to help you. If you don't want help that's on you. But don't come crawling up to others and expect them to listen to your problems when you don't wanna change shit. 
          
          

I am in fact a homosexual trans man.