muntaha ♥️

Kindly give it a try 
          (I apologise for leaving it here)
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/355471798?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Blackberry363567

SOME THINGS I WANNA SAY THAT ARE TOTALLY IRRELEVANT: 
          1- ny guy bsf pinched my cheeks randomly today and said they were soft ? He's literally never done that before in the four years we've been friends. 
          2- he also somehow manged to figure out how i have mixed emotions towards that so called crush I always rant about and how i shut people out and be mean a lot bc ive been hurt too mant times to the point where im scared of getting close to ppl and wnd up getting hurt or hurting someone ; basically he's making me feel the exact same things towards him which is bothering me so much. 
          3- I hope I'm not catching feelings for this mf. 
          4- I kinda wanna pretend to be in a relationship with someone and I think he's the perfect candid although I don't wanna end up hurting him in any way 
          5- I asked to hang out with him on my birthday so yay??

Slowly learning to stop giving a sh*t about other people :) if they wanna stay then they can idc what anyone does anymore. That’s the scariest part, once you get used to being left you lose that trust and you change. And then they’ll act as if they care once you stop caring.

Eid mubarak!! I hope you all have a blessed day <3 
          I'm sure a lot you have heard about palestinians who are suffering immensely due to terror attacks in Al-Aqsa mosque (one of the 3 most holiest sites in Islam) and being ripped out of their homes in Sheikh Jarrah. Many MANY children, women and men have lost their lives due to racial discrimination which could have been solved if the Israeli government understood the many wonders and beauties of Islam itself. 
          Please pray for our dear brothers and sisters who have suffered during this Holt month of Ramadan and now also eid, and keep them in your daily duas. There are also petitions that you can sign and marches that you can join (one on Saturday 15th May in london). Your silence means choosing the bad side. Please PLEASE do all you can to raise awareness and take part in bringing peace to Palestine. 
          I think it's inspiring that there are people who fought for their own justice and still managed to smile through their hardships. Allah is always with us, he is watching and he will protect us. This dunya is only temporary, please make the most out of the knowledge we have and yet to gain. 
          PALESTINE WILL BE FREE. #PLM 

HII

Hey guys ! Drop your snapchat @s, I’ll add you ^-^ mine is not.mun in case anyone wants to be mutuals :]

Is 4:40am. And here I am, crying. And my head is empty except for these lyrics : 
          
          I'm so used to letting go
          But I don't wanna be alone 
          You were good to me 
          
          And you know what?  I'm tired of being the one who gets too close, I'm tired of being the only one who puts effort into friendship, I'm tired of being left all the goddamn time so I just have to let go even though I'm scared of being lonely. Even if they were good to me. If that's how is gonna be I might as well not even try right?  Who needs friends anyway.

How has it been 4 years already since I joined ... damn time flies, it feel like it was just last week that I first published TBOYAI but I’ve already started writing my next project — SINCERELY, YOURS — which is soon to be published ;-;

F**K just the thought of him makes me all giddy I just wanna see his gorgeous smile and beautiful laugh one last time :( I hope he knows I still have the biggest crush on him and that this one sided bs hurts like a  b i t c h 

My account isn't big or anything bit I was wondering what you guys thought about this : I have two fanfics in my drafts, one a seungmin fic called Sincerely Yours, and the other is a seungjin fic called Benifits (not the official name as of yet) . Which of the two do you think sounds more interesting ?