if anyone's been wondering what's up with me, i'm taking some time to grieve because my dad passed recently after fighting for his life on life support for 5 weeks and i've been taking it very badly. he was one of my favorite people, my best friend and the hardest but most loving critic and every day without him here feels like a nightmare, so i'm just trying to find my will to live again because right now, it feels more than hopeless. if you've read this far, please go give your loved ones a hug or a kiss, or tell them that you love them. you never know, it might be the last time you get to do that.