Hello to anyone who might see and read this, today is a terrible day I was in my high school when it happened learning I'm only fourteen but today was the day I lost my best friend now a few of you must be thinking I'm talking about a human childhood friend but I'm not, today I lost my first ever friend a dog, her name is/was Ellie she was a Kelpie cross border collie more Kelpie though I got her at the age of two with my twin brother mother and farther now divorced when I was the age of 3 I believe I moved to soon I moved to axdale where I would then meet my mum's boyfriend now husband and new friends at axdale primary school when I graduated I lost a lot of them even before I graduated I still lost friends as they moved I lost contact with them, I now go to CMC at axdale, but enough of that I got Ellie from the pound I never thought I would need to say good bye to her I don't know what to feel is it anger I wasn't there but at high school, resentment I wouldn't let her sleep in my room because I didn't want my bedroom door to be open so my mum would see I was on my iPad and not asleep was it sadness I couldn't save her, I don't know I hate how I wasn't there though so here I am I don't care right now about my life I'll still live but it hurts it feels like my organs were scouped or ripped out of my body then ripped apart some more so I here to say that Im not going to update for a while as I bond that my best friend is gone she isn't going to be there when I wake up to the sound of her barking shes really gone.. that's all but mostly...I miss her so much