Hello, i want to get this off my chest.
I first joined wattpad way back in highschool (I'm an adult 20+ now). I went to a secluded boarding school for years that time, in SEA and we were - and still are in that school & in this country of mine - pretty ignorant (no teachers emphasizes or teaching us) of racial issues, racial slurs, symbols or anything sensitive due to other races and I'm very sad about it now, because of that, I was quite ignorant of a racial slur and HAVE used it in Wattpad comments (probably about 3-5? Comments) before. Not knowing that it was a racial slur. The first time I came to know this slur (the 'N' word) I SWEAR that I have never known it was a slur (boarding school secluded sheltered child problem i gotta work on) I HONESTLY thought it was a slang everyone on the internet use. NOW, only NOW I remembered that I HAVE written a couple of comments years back with my ignorance for the world to see and I want to cry because why did i not know it back then? I want to apologize to the black people for not knowing about it. This has been on my mind for quite a while, and I have been trying to find my old comments regarding the usage of that slur so I can apologize to the people properly. If there is any black people in the Wattpad community seeing this, let me apologize to you, as an adult for my mistake of almost a decade ago, please. I will educate my friends and family so they will never make the mistake(s) I've done too. Again, I will apologize for my ignorance.