It's so crazy it's so crazy.. How everytime I try to feel something for someone and God indirectly gives me indications or some signal that hurts me too much but I accept it as fate. I want to be in love and also don't want to be in. The urge to talk someone about my day, to see someone, to touch someone everything makes my heart shrink as tightly that sometimes I feel suffocated in my whole body.
I don't know if I'll be getting a bf or not.. I just want someone to talk with and I guess, God doesn't like that request too.
-Moonheart