For so long i abandoned my passion for reading and writing, my comfort place wattpad, my people , everything just for good grades. Being a college topper i had so much expectations from faculty, peer groups that i thought me enjoying my leisure time is a very unacceptable thing. Whenever i get low grades in internal exams my faculty blame for being lazy , my colleagues laughed at me . Even they have silent competition with me such that if they get any good grades than me they starts to mock me. I could literally understand every snakes out there. During this 5 days vacation which i got, i was completely out from my college, my hostel and away from all those snakes, I started to go back to my roots, my reading, my comfort place. And felt like i somehow met my old me. Not completely but yeah i do felt like very light minded. I was free from every toxicity. I forced my self into free time. I started to discover underrated stories, people, i started to feel myself the old me.
I understood one thing- through all these higher academic performance i was never happy. I do felt good but not happy. Most importantly i was not me.
I think i need the chage. I dont want to go back to that stressful unhappy me. I want to graduate with just good marks . And lead a happy , stressless life .
Most importantly I WANT TO BE ME
SO to all those snakefuckingbitches in my college( i know you don’t even know this side of me) lol: F’ you bitches . F’ you and your f’ ing competitions . Go find a life of yourself you douchebages i hate youuu alll i f’ing hate you with my all heart. Go smell your armpit and get yourself a fresh bath you dogssss
