᭥ 幽霊 ꫂ ၴႅၴ

[  no,  he's  not.  alexander  is  no  good,  and  he  knows  this.  the  things  he  did  to  make  it  through  the  unfortunate  circumstances  of  his  life  made  him  feel  sick.  it  wasn't  his  fault,  but  with  how  he  was  raised,  and  what  his  parents  used  to  tell  him─  all  of  it  was  his  fault  in  his  mind.  keeping  his  icy-colored  gaze  on  the  ground,  xander  thought  about  his  next  words  carefully  before  vocalizing  what  he  felt.  ]  i  just...  it  just  feels  like  i'm...  i  don't  know.  the  things  i've  done,  none  of  it  was  really  my  fault,  but  it  was.  god─ -  i'm  sorry.  this  is  fucking  stupid.  i  don't  know  why  i  brought  it  up.
            
            ;  yki ❕️

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  i think ..ㅤ[dante trails off, the words getting caught in his throat before he can muster up the courage to vocalize them. what  / does /  he think? where is he going with this? he's unsure, that much is obvious, yet, he forces himself to continue, propping himself up on his elbow whilst he does so, gazing over at his beloved with that same, familiar, characteristic-softness in his otherwise dim, silvery hues.]ㅤi don't think you're inherently bad. i mean, if we're going based off what you've done to survive, none of us are really good at the end of the day. 
            
            /ㅤethel cain reference❔❕

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [truth be told, as of now, dante hasn't even pieced everything together, far too preoccupied with his aforementioned endeavors to even so much as glance up. it's only when xander beckons him closer, that he somewhat comes to realize the other's intentions, yet, that doesn't stop him from complying, heart thumping as he scotts closer, arm instantly presenting itself for the other to take. he's relaxed, surprisingly so, yet, his limb, specifically his bicep, and the muscle surrounding it, are a bit tense, like he's anticipating the sensation of xander's fangs penetrating his flesh.]ㅤjust ─ be gentle, alright? you can't kill me, but i can still feel shit.  :') 

[  almost  immediately,  xander  can  feel  the  unwelcomed  ache  in  his  gums  and  he  tries,  so  hard,  to  keep  his  fangs  from  being  elongated.  he  can  hear  the  opposing  male  speaking  to  him,  but  he's  not  listening  to  a  single  word.  the  only  time  the  vampire's  gaze  tears  away  from  the  bleeding  cut  is  so  that  he  can  look  beside  him  up  at  the  aforementioned  towel.  xander  brushed  off  his  boyfriend's  question  before  beckoning  him  closer.  ]  venez  ici.  i'll  get  it  for  you.
            
            ;  it's okay because it's him  <33

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  yeah, i'm aware.  :')ㅤ[dante continues blotting at the cuts obtained from a skateboarding accident, his lips parted slightly in apparent concentration as he wipes at the blood pooling along the wound penetrating his bicep with his fingers. his efforts are fruitless, though, and a few moments pass before he ultimately sighs, gaze falling upon his boyfriend for a split second before he motions to the towel hanging beside him.]ㅤcan you pass me that? 
            
            /ㅤi apologize on his behalf :') he hasn't even put two and two together yet 

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [dante can't help but smile softly at xander's words, his statement, spoken so simply, like it were nothing more than the time or weather, causing his heart to flutter uncontrollably, a gentle hum escaping him as the vampire's fingers find his hair.]ㅤyeah? thank you.ㅤ[the words are muffled as ever, yet audible all the same, the blonde's ever so slight smile evident in his voice. he doesn't lift his head, much too comfortable to do so, however, he does shift just a bit, nose brushing the fabric (unfortunately) covering his boyfriend's torso before he meets his gaze, silvery hues filled to the brim with an undeniable amount of admiration.]ㅤi missed you too, by the way. 
            
            /ㅤreallll ,,  truly just a human-sized teddy bear :') 

[  xander's  cerulean  hues  flickered  with  evident  adoration  as  he  watches  the  one  he  holds  closest  to  his  undead  heart  draw  nearer  to  his  current  place  of  comfort.  the  second  dante  settles  in  between  his  legs,  xander  shifted  slightly  wanting  to  make  sure  the  opposing  male  would  be  as  comfortable  as  possible.  once  he's  sure  his  boyfriend  is  comfortable,  the  vampire's  silver  adorned  fingers  soon  began  to  slowly  run  through  the  blonde  curls  now  sprawled  atop  his  chest.  ]  hé  mon  amour.  so  are  you.
            
            ;  he's such a puppy i <3 him sm  ☹️

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [almost immediately after dante is beckoned closer, he finds himself moving, his legs bringing him toward his beloved before he can even think twice. he crawls into bed and settles between xander's legs, his arms encircling his waist, head moving to rest upon his stomach. he lies like this for a moment, voice, quiet and soft, slightly muffled against the vampire's hoodie, his face essentially hidden from view, save for the top of his head, his curls sprawled atop the other's chest.]ㅤmm. you're so warm. 
            
            /ㅤdefinitely the most excruciating hour of his life too ☹️ 

/ bring back yearning men.

/ㅤhe's like a puppy i hate him ( affectionate )

;  i need him more than air

/ㅤgod this nsfw alphabet is abt to EAT

/   on rory ml ❗️

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [dante falls silent immediately after xander speaks, suddenly feeling as though he's seven years old again, being ridiculed by his pathetic excuse for a mother. he doesn't speak for a long while, only sits there, like a kicked puppy, hands balled atop his lap, gaze zeroed in on the floor. when he  / does /  eventually respond, his voice is quiet, the lump in his throat, coupled with the ache in his chest, causing his words to come out shaky and apprehensive.]ㅤi─ -ㅤi don't mean to. i just ..  i love you. a lot. 
            
            /ㅤdo you like torturing me. be honest. 

[  for  so  long,  xander  felt  as  if  his  ability  to  love  died  with  him,  along  with  his  vulnerability.  it  did,  but  the  opposing  male  before  him  resurrected  what  died  within  him.  the  vampire  couldn't  help  the  small  smile  that  pulled  the  corners  of  his  lips  heavenward,  the  pure  adoration  placed  upon  his  visage  proved  his  love  was  real  and  genuine.  ]  i  love  you.  so  much.
            
            ;  for real  </3

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [there they are. the three words dante has been waiting for what feels like decades to hear. a wide grin curves his lips once the term of endearment processes within his mind, his heart suddenly feeling significantly lighter, head undeniably fuzzy with a feeling he can't quite explain ─ all he knows is that he feels the same way, has for ages.]ㅤsay it again; that sounds nice coming from you. 
            
            /ㅤtook him long enough :') 

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [dante listens to his every word carefully, hanging on each syllable like he'd never again have the honor of hearing him speak. he glances over after a moment, brows creased slightly, lips pursed just a bit. it's clear xander's words caught him by surprise, the gentleness with which he speaks causing his breath to catch within his chest, his heart robbed of quite a few beats, despite himself. even from within the darkness, he's still so beautiful ─ so much so that it's almost painful to look at him; so, he doesn't. he glances back toward the ceiling, shadows, coupled with moonlight, dancing across the expanse whilst he formultes his response, his tone matching xander's.]ㅤbut, you do, don't you? love me, i mean. 

[  alexander's  empty  gaze  matched  how  he  felt  on  the  inside.  for  the  first  time  in  what  seemed  like  forever,  he  didn't  feel  a  thing.  he  didn't  say  a  thing  when  his  fading  cerulean  hues  glanced  to  the  side,  his  long-dead  heart  almost  breaking  seeing  how  his  words  affected  the  one  he  unfortunately  loved.  ]  every  day.  [  the  vampire  keeps  his  eyes  on  the  ground  while  he  thinks  of  what  to  say  next,  which  was  nothing.  he  couldn't  think  of  anything  else  to  say.  anything  that  would  make  this  situation  better,  that  is.  his  gaze  still  lingering  on  the  ground,  xander  would  eventually  speak  up,  and  when  he  does─  his  voice  is  quiet.  and  if  you  listened  closely,  you  could  almost  hear  his  voice  cracking  ever  so  slightly.  ]  because  if  you  were...  i  wouldn't  love  you  at  all.
            
            ;  yk what. i understand

── ✦ @odxelagnia,  [a sharp ache tears through dante's already-fractured heart at xander's words, his gaze not even flickering toward the other whilst he replies, silvery hues glued to the ceiling, blinking slowly. he wishes he could say he wasn't used to this.]ㅤi bet you do.ㅤ[it's only then that he glances over, gaze flickering along the vampire's side profile before he, ultimately, diverts his line of sight, voice quieter now, like he didn't want to be heard.]ㅤyou'd actually love me then, wouldn't you? 
            
            /ㅤthat block button has never looked better