moth/achilles :)

i'm alive :)
          
          
          life has been a drag recently but stay safe :)  <3

IVE LITERALLY BEEN PLAYING "romantic homicide" BY d4VD ON FUCKING REPEAT
          
          
          ITS SO FUCKING GOOD LIKE AHHHHH

so that i dont get arrested, could someone tell me that if i reference/mention a book in a book but dont give any details whether i would get arrested or not cause i dont need the writing police after me rn

im back from break! ill be starting a rewrite of "til forever falls apart" cause- i dont like it right now. i may start writing a different story but i'm not sure yet. ill try to update on something. thanks!

fuck romeo and juliet. i want what these bitches have.
          
          
          
          the bitches in question: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4ypxsdiUNM

if anyone says "atta girl/boy" to me ever, i might just-

yesterday, my significant other kept like trying to grab my waist from behind and then i'd lean my lower half out. he was like "what are you doing?" and i was like "IM TRYING TO NOT BE AGAINST YOUR CROTCH IF THATS ALRIGHT WITH YOU GOD-"

theres a stupid reason that i dont like regretting things i dont do
          
          i was once at sallys hair place getting stuff to do my roots and me and the lady at the front desk started chatting. she was absolutely stunning like literally-
          
          but i told her, i was like i really wanna cut my hair. and she was just like do it. i was like thats easier said than done and i have strict parents. 
          
          she responded with, "my parents were strict, too. but i will say, doing stuff that you want to do now but wont be able to do it in the future, do it. it doesnt matter the consequences as long as you're happy with the decision and it makes you feel good. so, fuck what they say. their time has passed and it's your time to shine. so, shave your head, kiss that guy or girl... or anyone, try new things. you only live once and there's not much time until high school and college end. live your life and make sure there arent any consequences that make you regret everything either way."
          
          she then hugged me and was like "be you, dude. you have one life and you need to live it." 
          (most definitely a rendition, idk anything word for word) 
          
          this was like a little under a year ago but it still hits hard. like, thank you wherever you are and i hope you are getting drunk on life. 
          
          so, go live your lives with no regrets. be who you are. go cliff jumping. go swim with sharks. take a trip around the world. as long as it makes you happy.
          
          - :]

As we all know, Technoblade has officially passed from cancer. I was really never able to watch the smp videos due to not being allowed to have social media and not having this computer. I really only heard about it from friends and that's what got me started on the DSMP. Lately, (mainly this past year) there have been many conflicting things with some of the SMP members and what they have done. Though I never watched a lot of the DSMP videos (like, a lot), I will say some of my favorite creators from it have been Wilbur Soot, Philza, Tommyinnit, Ranboo, and Technoblade. I didn't find out Techno died until the 1st because of not having my computer or social media. I denied it quite a bit. It shocked me. I was really angry with it all. That it was so unfair for someone pretty young. I didn't cry until hours later. When I did eventually cry, it lasted for a long time. I really tried to cope with humor (that's my go-to coping mechanism) but it made it worse. I was also home alone that night which made it harder. I have finally come to terms with the reality that he is gone. Technoblade will forever be missed. 
          
          6.1.1999 - 6.30.2022
          Technoblade never dies and never will; forever reign
          
          
          Thank you so much, Technoblade, for the laughs and smiles you've brought us. Your pain is finally over. Thank you.

i will be shitposting but yeah :)