motherfic

I got injured at school so now patched of skin on my left leg are gone

motherfic

Sometimes I miss my toxic bsf because they made my feelings feel valid. Without them I feel like I need a better reason to feel bad. I know they made my life a hell but I cant help but miss them just a little bit.

motherfic

I’ve been feeling miserable for a while and it only started this school year because of one of my bestfriends. I just can’t take it I feel pressured and overwhelmed and I feel like I’m just being dramatic but when I think about it I realize more and more how toxic they are but I don’t want to leave them. When my brain starts thinking about it I start crying.  I have good parents but I can’t help but feel miserable because of my bestfriend. I’ve tried self harming but I can’t do it because I think someones gonna find out and I’ll be done for. My older sibling tells me how toxic they are but I can’t leave them. I wanted to have good friends and a life drama free but every week theres drama and anger in my friend group. And it only happens because my bestfriend starts drama all the time. I’ve been feeling sewer slidel for a while but I can’t do it. I want to but I just cant. I just want to go back to the days with my only bestfriend(my girlfriend now) when it wasn’t filled with drama and tears. I have been thinking of leaving them but I think they will scream at me. I can’t speak very well when I’m under pressure or being yelled at. They get mad at me for little to no reason but I still find myself laughing with them.

PancakeTheKat

That’s fine, you don’t need to leave them immediately, it can take time especially if you guys were friends for a long time.
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motherfic

Thank you for the advice and support. it’ll probably take a long time to leave them
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PancakeTheKat

You shouldn’t feel selfish, these feelings are completely valid. I suggest you leave them, they’re clearly taking a toll on your mental and emotional well-being. For a little while I was in the same place, I had food and loving parents and a good home life but my friends were incredibly toxic and I couldn’t bring myself to leave them. Once I finally left them, I felt so much better as myself. And please, don’t resort to sewer side. I don’t know anything about your family but I have a feeling that they would want to help you if you told them about all this. You don’t need to take my advice through, I’m just a person on the internet, not a professional psychiatrist. I still want to help as much as I can. I hope you’re ok!
            (Wow that was long)
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