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Hey!! Please read!!
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Adding onto my last announcement, last year was just.. Ough. When I joined Wattpad I was barely a teenager and had just come straight from abusive friendships, or lack thereof any. I made connections, and I got myself into a lot of shit. I'm different from how I was back then, from when I spent hours on this site. I've come to realize a lot about myself and the world and I'm thankful that I was on here and so active for so long, however in retrospect a lot of it was bad and not good for me.
I still carry a lot of weight from the normalization and trauma connections through Wattpad had gave me. Logging onto this account is bittersweet for me. I guess that's part of why I'm not as active anymore. I've grown a lot, I'll say that, and I'll also say that a lot of that *is* thanks to this site and the people I've met on it. In the end, now, I see that it's best to leave these things behind.
I was both hurt and comforted here, and I'm sure I've done the same to others. I want to thank each and every person I met on here (except everyone who's been toxic to me - ie. Jasper, tj, Olivia) for helping me through some of my darkest moments when I was just a confused kid looking for connections over hyperfixations... Even if I still kinda am.
And, on the "thank you note" - Especially to Ash. I don't know if they're going to read this, but if they do I hope that they know I've been writing this with them in mind. Wattpad was the only thing we used to talk.. and I still hold memories with you fondly. Even if I've never been the best friend.
I have my regrets on here, yes, but without this hell I wouldn't be me. And.. Even if I don't exactly *like* who I am, being mildly pleased that I'm different from how I used to be is (certainly) a start. Until next time I bother to log on, your favorite piss boy;
- Skylar <3