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bye.

I honestly want to delete all my books and just do kpop covers and maybe keep nefarious and that’s it. I’m not rlly motivated to keep the rest.

my aunt passsed away and I don’t know what to do with myself. 

I just want a hug and to go to sleep with no worries but I can’t

I’ve been to therapy before. I went for months. I need to go back before I actually do something I regret. My mom says things will get better but nothing has gotten better. I wish I could sleep forever. Or just leave my body for a second and just think. With all this stress on me I will lose my hair since I have alopecia. I can’t stress. It’s bad for me. I have this guilt in my heart that won’t go away. I have this guilt of not spending enough time with my grandma. Not spending enough time with my aunt. With the virus going around I’ve been stuck with my family. I need to get out here. I need to be left alone. 

hi I want to rant on here rq. 
          
          So I posted five days ago that I’ve been having family problems and it’s getting worse. My family has been struggling to keep my auntie in a clean and safe environment before she passes. I know that she’s going to pass soon. When I went to visit her, he skin was so so cold and she was so thin. She could barely breathe on her own or walk. She lost all her hair and everything. I feel like shit because this will probably be my last time ever visiting her. I haven’t seen her in like five years. My grandpa told me to be strong but I can’t. I can’t be strong. I feel so hopeless and I don’t want to go through this again. When my grandma passed I honestly wanted to end my life. I feel so weak. And I hate how I’m crying right now. I hate feeling weak and miserable. I just hate it. It’s like I can’t get a break. I just want to cry now. I gave up on a lot of things. I try to stay strong but I can’t. I don’t know if I can take this anymore.

I’m back hopefully been having a lot of family problems this past month and it keeps getting worse.

um hello.... I haven’t been on here in a while....

Saying that other groups that don’t have much success as your faves are flops is not cute! 

I’m disappointed in ahgases...