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Thanks for your support
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Just want to say that I'm back for good now.
I'll be designing here and there but not all the time c:
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@modernistic @ThePianoGirl thanks guys <3 I might be starting over on this account - like closing it and opening up a new account under the same username, but im not so sure yet
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i might return, but im not sure
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Menma! Thank god you're okay!!! Whenever you want to talk, my inbox is always open :) <3
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I'm crying right now while reading everything...I have over 40 messages in my inbox from you guys (most about graphics...really...)
So...mmm I'm not dead.
A little...well VERY unstable right now.
I was in hospital because I did try to end my life, the thing that saved me? I didn't take enough tablets to fully kill me, only put me unconscious and unresponsive for a while.
The doctors did say that if I had been left alone like that for 2 more hours, I probably WOULD have died...
So I'm thankful to my step dad...
And to all of you...
I'm sorry I scared you, I'm sorry my depression got too much for me to handle, and I'm sorry I never asked for help...I just blocked everyone out...
I'm still fucking crying while writing this...
I'm in recovery right now, seeing a doctor twice a week, it's still hard, but I'm still here...guess that means something right?
Thank you.
- menma
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@eevee- Im so glad you didn't take enough pills.... don't do something stupid like that again!! c: we are all really glad you are okay! you are a good person and an amazing designer (seriously, a really amazing designer!)!
graphicbitch
@eevee- Hey, so you don't really know me but I've seen your graphics and I heard what was happening to you. I just want to say that I think you're a really good person and I'm glad you're still here to show us your talent. <3 You're an amazing graphic designer and I hope that pesky little trolls will NEVER step foot near you again cause your fans will beat them the hell up. <3 Stay awesome gq-
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menma? are you there? i am not good at this but please tell me.
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Menma, I hope you're not already gone. I haven't really gotten to know you as we only connected a couple of weeks ago, but you honest to God seem like an amazing person. If you're gone, I'm truly sorry I wasn't around to see all of this sooner, I'm sorry I couldn't help you.
If you're still here, will you please talk to me?
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This is my final goodbye.
Thanks for the support.
Goodbye.
AuthorJenniferPorter
@eevee- I really hope you aren't already gone. If you're still with us, then even though we don't know each other, I'm always here if you need a friend or just someone to talk to <3
ThePianoGirl
@eevee- Please don't do this, Menma. There are so many people that love you and care about you! <3
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Oh my god no! People care about you so much! Don't make a mistake you'll regret
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Yah bye guys.
No one gives a fuck about me anymore so like adios.
See you in the afterlife.
ThePianoGirl
@eevee- I'm going to have to get off for a little bit, but I'll be back as soon as I can <3
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@eevee- What?! We do care!! Suicide is not the way to escape from it, girl. I know you've put up with an enormous amount of shit in your life, and I feel for you. But suicide isn't the way to solve it. It's a long-term consequence for short-term pain. I know you probably don't want to listen to this, but you should really seek counseling for your pain. The world can be an incredible place if you just wait and see. Sure, some people can be extremely hurtful and hateful. Trust me, I've seen my share of it. But that's not any excuse to end your life. If you kill yourself, you're letting them win. You're letting them get to you. And that's just what they want. To beat you and tear you down. But you WILL find good people in your life. People that love you and care about you. People that will make you believe in the beauty of life. And trust me, if you end it now, you will never get to experience the joy and peace that comes from life, if you're willing to push past the pain now. I don't want to sound like I'm preaching or anything, but I've experienced more fulfillment and joy from being a Christian than I ever have before in my entire life. I'd love to tell you about it, if you want me to. If not, that's ok. But I can promise you, if you fight through the pain and hurt now, you will be so glad when you look back on it years later. <3 Believe me, the pain does go away.