i know you don’t want to hear from me and i know you blocked me on everything and i don’t even know if you will get this but im sorry. i’m sorry for making you feel like i always blamed you. im sorry for everything i ever did that hurt you in any way. i never wanted that to happen. i’m sorry my parents found out about everything and told ur parents but most of all im sorry that i ruined us. you were the most amazing part of my life and i hate myself for losing you. i see you in everything. something happens and my first thought is to tell you. i love you lainey and that’s never going away. i know you hate me and you’re mad at me and you wish i was dead but i hope you can still think of our memories and be thankful for the time we had together. i never expected our friendship would end. it was like my whole entire world just fell apart in the span of 24 hours. i only wish you would understand that throughout the whole thing, tried to protect you. even to this day i still try to protect you. and i completely understand how pissed at me you are. you feel like i just threw you under the bus but i swear it wasn’t like that. i remember the very first night i got in trouble thinking “if they make me stop being friends with lainey im going to kill myself” and then u sent that message the next day. i’m really sorry lainey and i know you don’t want to be my friend again but i just want you to know that i hope you are happy and thriving and i hope you and jacey are going well. i love you so much.
