You’re an amazing writer, I’m speaking for myself but I truly enjoy you’re updates and your stories. It’s rare to find someone who puts desire with actual emotion, I appreciate you and your style so much. That being said I’d also like to say that anyone who causes you unwarranted pain does not truly love you, I speak from experience. I know it’s difficult because that very sound deep love we crave makes it so incredibly easy to choose the wrong person, but I really do believe we all have an appointed one, someone beyond anyone we’ve ever accepted for our selves, someone we often only “read” about but I believe that sort of love is indeed real and will come to you when it’s the right time. I hope that you heal properly and that richly beautiful love comes to you and us all.