Kwdgkwgdjwgsjevwjdgwkgrk idk what to do anymore :((
I feel like I'm worried 24/7, waiting for something bad to happen. I can't even enjoy the weekend anymore because I spend the whole time worrying about school.
I hate school so much. I hate the classes I'm in. I hate that there are people around me, coughing, sneezing, sharing the same air as me. I feel trapped. I feel like a used sponge, a dented frying pan. I feel like I'm poisoned, like I'm dirty and disgusting. I'm told to stop. I won't be able to go outside if I continue.
I don't want to go outside. I am not introverted, I hate being inside, but it's such torture to be in public now. It's exhausting. It's too loud, there's too much to see, there's too many smells. Why was I born to do anything but be human? Why was I molded into a monster with a thirst to be its prey?