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im 19 now…

took a gap year. lost my JOBS yea plural. bleached and dyed my hair in hopes of happiness and instead i got sadder because my shits fried AGAIN. one good thing though is i got rejected and it actually made me feel good oddly enough, so despite these atrocities in my life, im feeling pretty happy. and that’s a new one for me :)))

rewatching one tree hill for the first time in a while and why have i noticed how chad micheal murray lowkey sucks at acting…he has the same five emotes which all to some degree include smoldering seducingly. i need more than that damnit, like he was good in the first season the first few episodes, but i think that with the downfall of his character also came the downfall of his acting. james lafferty wasn’t too bad but not amazing or anything either, better than mr.murray though. the girls ate it up though everytime they never disappointed, of course. there’s more to this rant but my phones shitty so typing is hard, but if i finally get my computer soon, i will continue this later. also i graduated high school WOOOO !!!

wattpad is so boring now i remember it when it was a bustling lil app with people publishing stories left and right about fictional men or famous people, now it’s so dead… this sucks. REVIVE DAMNIT. 

also… 18 now.

super bored so publishing a draft of mine :P

also got a job as a hostess at this new mexican restaurant. pretty good so far. and very good food.

brownie and red bull for brekkie. nutritious, delicious.

i saw stray kids three days ago…
          
          and han noticed me…
          
          the post concert depression is hitting hard

im 17 now.