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Hello, I'd like to apologize for my lack of good story updates recently. I've reached another writer's block and I haven't been very pleased with my work, I want to make content that you the readers like and not just shit that I like, but I need you all to know something that I've been keeping to myself for a while. I write stories not because I want to entertain, but because I tend to hyperfixate on certain topics or situations, because I want to be able to go onto adventures I can never have, to actually bring joy to people for once in my life. Due to this my mind is basically like an endless movie theater or TV, and once I have something in my head I have to and must write it down or else I lose all focus on reality and all that good stuff. If these ideas do not get turned into a story then they would run in my head causing me to lose sleep, but at times my creative part of my brain just shuts off for a while and I can't think of anything worth writing or reading.
Its like my mind can't regurgitate those adventures I so long to have. Now, don't get me wrong, I've been having ideas left and right... But I just don't think they're worth putting in these heart wrenching stories you so love and I tend to worry if my stories are getting too redundant, boring or are going on for too long and these negative thoughts build up and I can't sleep until I make sure everyone is happy with my work... I'm sorry... I really am.