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i keep putting myself in same situations and have more or less same outcomes like I wouldn’t know from the start WHAT STATE ID BE IN LATER ON.

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he told me he has a bad habit of forgetting people existed. That he’s far too afraid to make new friends and prefers to stay around his own, he wouldn’t dare start a conversation. I told him it’s not good to ‘forget’ people exist and try to socialise with those around him. He refused. Now he’s forgotten me. Is he ignoring me because playing with me has become a chore he cannot simply keep up with? Have I become boring, has someone else more amusing come into his life? Or does he simply not enjoy my presence anymore?

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life update from me to me - I start year 11 soon, if somebody had told me a yr ago how different this year wud have been compared to last year I wud have never believed it. Last year was a fever dream, my friendgroup, him, the vibes, the school year has such a special place in my heart. I have met new people this year though, kinda crazy. Actually waiting for him to come online while I type this. But always think about Finland. Can’t say tm or I’ll end up shedding a few tears. May this school year make up for the hardships I went through in year 10, all I need to do is focus and it will all be worth it. I have a niece on the way, so excited to meet my cutie  I don’t really read, but I hope to do so soon, life being super boring rn I think I need to do smth other than playing Roblox with n every hour of every day but, that’s another story for another day. c u soon ME.