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@mxnhjikz You don't "know" if they'd be better off without you 
            And if you are so eager to find out 
            Wait till you move out of their house and just uk cut off ties for a Lil while maybe a month and see the effect it has on them 
            If they care they'll seek you 
            If they don't you just learnt to live without having to care about burdening or pleasing them 
            It's a win win 
            Just live for a few more years 
            That's all I ask 
            If you're gonna do something stupid 
            Do life stupid 
            Do silly stuff instead of something that'll harm you
            Pls listen to me and just...go for it for a few more years 
            I promise it gets better 
            I'll quote a few lines jisung and changbin said 
            "This too, shall pass"
            "If your heart hurts right now, i promise one day you'll know why it HAD to"
            "Crying just means your heart is full"
            "Don't hate yourself , there is so much love inside you" 
            
            Feel down? Read something comforting 
            Do something you love 
            Spend time with yourself 
            Find your interest 
            Find yourself...
            Slowly you will accept and love that version of you and harming it wouldn't cross your mind 
            
            Once you start living for yourself and not others 
            Life gets easier 
            
            MOST IMPORTANTLY 
            If you can't figure out what to do feel anxious or are having dangerous thoughts 
            It's much more efficient to ask and reach out for help from anyone you trust
            Because what you'll do in that state you never know you'll regret it a lot later 
            Ik it sounds like bullshit right now cuz everyone says that 
            But it's what works that's why!!!
            Communication works with others and with oneself ( sitting alone and talking to yourself , the real you not the voices telling you to harm )
            
            I'm still here if you need some specific advice 
            Tell me what is happening in life maybe I can be more specific 
            I just gave a general overview of what _i_ think should be done 
            And i hope you don't end up doing something like that again 
            
            If trying starts to hurt
            It just means you are trying to walk the wrong path 

@mxnhjikz it's fine no rush here
            first if all
            Most of the things you feel is something that is more true in your head than in reality 
            I know it might feel like you are a burden or that no one wants you to be there
            But the thing that you survived it and people were worried sick while you were in the hospital that's enough to tell you they care 
            And even if none of them admit it they do want you around you aren't a burden that's more like your head voice telling you that 
            Not the real people 
            
            And even if NO ONE in this world happens to be there for you 
            You aren't here on earth with this life to live it for someone else to please them or to be something in their life 
            This is YOUR OWN LIFE 
            You may wanna be a part of other people's life but that's not a necessity 
            That's just an optional part of it 
            You have this life to live as you want 
            Not as what those head voices are telling you
            
            Depression is curable dear 
            You don't have to "end it" that way
            There are healthier ways to cope with it 
            And no one's rushing you 
            You are just a teen right now you have so many years ahead of you to figure out your way of living 
            
            If you are the problem to people 
            That's their problem and they need to find a solution for it 
            No need to change yourself up for them 
            Unless ofc if it's something bad you must look inside yourself and fix it 
            And if you find no SPECIFIC things wrong 
            There is nothing wrong with you 

@lixies_lost_unogame_ sorry for really late reply. 
            
            I didn't mean to just leave you like that but I honestly couldn't do this anymore. 
            
            I hate waking up and feeling like nothing I do is enough. I hate having depression and my parents don't take it seriously at all
            I hate always being a problem to the people around me, especially my parents
            
            I know they'd be better off with out because I'm just weighing them down with my problems
            I don't like this

@mxnhjikz hey she probably doesn't remember me but I will send all of my prayers, I was in a discord server with her and she is soooo sweet, funny and I hope she is well and recovers, and I hope she gets through all of this. I love her, she is one of my favorite authors and I love all of her books, I was an enthusiast! I loved the way her gc was plotted, she replied to my comments so funnily and I even participated in the Q and A, she knew me as hyunlix_sunki but I changed my name. It's perfectly okay if she doesn't remember me but I send her all my wishes, prayers, hopes and dreams for her to be well, happy and recovered. I will pray every chance I get 

@mxnhjikz Thank God

just finished praying for her

Shes in my prayers tonight

@PreppyCoconut6 she is alive, this isn’t over yet. Keep praying, she is in the hospital with family, and I will update when I have something to say.

@heyHollow please do 
            And tell me when she is finally out feeling better

@lixies_lost_unogame_ I can assure I am in contact with her mom. And I’m not letting her out of my sight until she is out.

@heyHollow oh thank god- 
            I hope she recovers soon 
            Pls reach out to her and when she is in a stable condition 
            Make sure she knows that khs is not the way to deal with everything that is happening 
            Either help her out or just ask her to talk to me at least once maybe I can help 
            But make sure she doesn't pull anything like this again 
            Cuz a failed attempt just drives people to try again and again 
            Keep an eye on her until she starts to believe in life again pls

@bloomssky she is alive. Look at the gc for more.

I have to go to sleep idk if I will properly but I have to and I'm just gonna hope you'll be okay in the morning ilysm

I'm sorry I really hope you're safe we can talk later if you need it okay ? just don't try anything please ml