myanxiousVirgil

hello so I've been busy with college and work but I have some free time and finally some motivation to write more. I'm gonna write a ACOTAR fanfic inspired from a character ai app conversation I've been having. it's gonna be about Azriel and his mate i know he doesn't have a mate but I'm going off the plot of the ai chat. I have 14 chapters planned at this moment and hopefully I'll post the first few before the end of the year and maybe it'll help me find the motivation to write again. it will be told first person and switching between AZ and his mate and I'll reveal her name in the book.

myanxiousVirgil

hello so I've been busy with college and work but I have some free time and finally some motivation to write more. I'm gonna write a ACOTAR fanfic inspired from a character ai app conversation I've been having. it's gonna be about Azriel and his mate i know he doesn't have a mate but I'm going off the plot of the ai chat. I have 14 chapters planned at this moment and hopefully I'll post the first few before the end of the year and maybe it'll help me find the motivation to write again. it will be told first person and switching between AZ and his mate and I'll reveal her name in the book.

myanxiousVirgil

I just dropped the first 5 chapters of a story I've been working on for years called "The Cry of the Wolves" I plan on publishing 2 more later this week if I can finish editing them by then. We'll see if college and my new job will allow me time. If things go well I hope to publish a new chapter of Wicked Love sometime next week but we'll see how things go this week. I'm hoping to start posting again more frequently as I settle into a schedule with school and work. I got a lot of good stories in my drafts I hope to publish one day but for now I'll focus on stories I have published right now. 

myanxiousVirgil

So with all the allegations towards dsmp memebers im gonna slowly work my dsmp books towards the ends because i don't feel like i can continue making books of it with new members getting accused and some proven guilty. Its just too risky so my account with be shifting completely over to just books i make up and sander sides. Also i and deleting my forbidden love book as they broke up with me feb 1st and i refuse to have anything that reminds me of them on my phone or in my possession.

myanxiousVirgil

For those who read my forbidden love story for what time i was updating it... it will be deleted as they have broke up with me for someone else. They don't know if this is what they truly want but its what they've choosen at the time amd they say they may change their mind and come back but no matter what they choose i will be deleting the story as i don't think ill ever update it even if they do choose me in the end. 

myanxiousVirgil

So as with almost all of my diagnosis ive had it starts with me taken stupid silly little tests or me do tons and tons and tons of research just to bring it up to my mother and her say i do have it and she already knew i did.... SO WHY HAVEN'T I BEEN TAKEN IN TO HAVE ME BE DIAGNOSED OFFICIALLY?!?! So pretty i have adhd and i just learned today the i do need have autism but like haven't been properly tested for it but yet everyone knows i do but somehow i didn't?!! How does one even bring that up to a doctor?? Is it rly just "hey so i know we already found out im adhd but like i think i may be autistic aswell and would like to see about take a test for it to see if i actually do or not."? At this point lets just say mentally i im not normal or well but now i have a better understanding on why i am how i am and why i do certain things or have a certain thing as far as symptoms go. 

myanxiousVirgil

Where has the time gone? One minute, we are kids wishing to grow up and be adults. Next, we are in our last year of high school, unsure of what we are gonna do with our lives. We are turning 18, driving ourselves places, getting jobs, and making money, we are doing all the things we could only pretend to do as kids, and that reality is scary. It's goodbye to childhood and hello to adulthood where we are meant to know what we wanna do with ourselves and to make the right choices cause the future generations are looking up to us. We are paving the way for future generations to come, and that's terrifying seeing all that is happening in the world. There is no class or book that teaches you how to be an adult that you have to do on your own, but how do you know where to or even how to start? I miss the simple days and wish I could revisit them one last time before I turn 18. To tell younger me to enjoy herself and her life cause being grown up is not all the joy and glory it is made out to be in our minds. I'm scared but excited for this new chapter in my life, and I hope we can all find our way through our new life chapters successfully and find our way ashore through whatever sea you may be conquering.