mybeautyandrage

heyyy so i'm hella inactive on here atm.
          
          don't fret - still writing - just trying to improve on my storyline and experimenting with perspective, writing style etc. so i'm kind of rewriting fnw from scratch. i've realised the version on here isn't up to what i want it to be... like, not even in a 'it's your first draft!' sense either... there aren't any major flaws with it even, i just have different priorities with it to what i began with!
          
          i'm also trying to be extra cautious about avoiding romanticising/glorifying mental illness, something i set out from the very beginning, but i watched this brilliant video essay on the topic the other day - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6c8o68ghGBM - and i'd recommend anyone wanting to address mental illness in their work to check it out. frankly i'm sick of seeing poor 'he kissed my scars and calmed my panic attacks' representation here more often than not but even saying that, it's a lot more complex than it seems at a glance and even the most talented authors struggle to get it even.
          
          other than that, atc released today! acoustic version of 'weapon' which is so FREAKIN' fitting for my book as well... also chrissy is just someone i am totally in love with anyway... so go check it out.
          
          p.s. i got my retail job back! different hours to before but i'm so happy to be going back there and to actually be employed again!
          
          okay i'll  shut up now.

uh stream ‘she’s my religion’ by pale waves because oh my GOD...

i love watching movies i was obsessed with in my childhood/early teens and realising that i definitely had a crush on half the characters... prime example being 'catching fire' where the whole cast is PRETTY.

happy bday naya. i miss you and think about you every single day. thank you for everything. Xx

thanks for reading OUAT <3

just here to say that i have three assignments due in the next two weeks which are approximately 5% done therefore i will NOT be letting myself write anything until they are done. nada. banned. no. on another note we have just been put under lockdown again so once they’re done, i will probably have 5 chapters to upload at once as i’m loving writing the part we’re at right now :)

it’s 10pm here so just want to wish everyone a better 2021! Xx

why am i literally writing the revised version of FAW at the same time as writing the current version of FAW... and i put like +90% effect into both whilst being like that... it really be like that sometimes.
          
          i also have potentially caught feelings for a girl who lives 3h away and i don’t even talk to *that* much?? but anyway...
          
          oh, and i had a dream last night that in the christmas story, mary had an affair with the inkeeper’s wife. crazy. i don’t even know.
          
          i’m also stanning dianna agron more than ever today, she is a godsent beauty.
          
          anyway, i need to sleep as i’m working a whopping 3h tomorrow (ikr) but i hope y’all had a good day today whether you celebrate christmas or not?!

i have watched four seasons of one tree hill in two weeks and i have never been so concerned about my netflix screentime until now

retail work be like asking customers if they need any help and them just saying solemnly ‘i always need help, but nobody can offer me that’ and having no fcking clue what to respond with.