mydarkflower

the alena elphaba tether is so unbelievably strong that i black out for ten minutes every time i’m reminded of it 

finished the best set of books i’ve read in a long time, perhaps just the best set of books i’ve read ever, and finally listened to florence’s everybody scream album and it’s moments like this where i realize i can’t be a pessimist i can’t be a nihilist and i can’t be without the arts. i sit and cry and my chest and throat hurt when i think about how much music and reading and writing stories means to me, and i imagine a world where those things are valued by all to the extent with which they are valued by me. and all forms of art are interconnected and compliment each other. i can’t listen to music and not brim with excitement as thoughts about my stories come to me unhesitatingly. i’m feeling very Feely. do NOT read the poppy war trilogy it will mess you up BAD. #stream everybody scream idk. Mother asked is this how it is? is this how it’s always been? to exist in the face of suffering and death and somehow still keep singing? and i said Well yes! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

thinking about my girl alena on this fine evening!!!

i would like to bring everyone’s attention to gaza direct aid which is a relief program operating in the gaza strip. its founder, ehab, who i have personally spoken to many times since june, and the gda team offer humanitarian aid to palestinian communities with the help of global donations. if you have the means to donate, it would be a great help! i also highly recommend following gda on instagram (@/gazadirectaid) as well as ehab (@/rida_ehab) to stay updated on their work and see the many photos and videos showing you exactly where your money is going and what it is funding. in the face of active suppression from instagram as well, the team really needs their page to reach more people.
          
          here is the link to gda’s about us post that will tell you everything you need to know about their cause (the caption makes a great point about printing this out as many times as you’d like and posting the flyers in public places or bringing them to protests!):
          
          https://www.instagram.com/p/DOCiwjGgFJs/?igsh=MTdkbXZ1NXBsZ3EzNA==
          
          thank you! 

it is, and has been for a heartbreakingly long time, crucial that the words and campaigns of palestinians are heeded and amplified. gaza has reached stage five of malnutrition, and there will be no coming back from this level of deprivation for many, many people. history has seen deliberate starvation like this before. 
          
          if you hear news of any organizations or upcoming protests near you (try to seek them out yourself as well!), if you are presented with a fundraising campaign that offers direct aid to palestine and, even better, if they are being run by palestinians, i implore you to keep fighting the good fight. your money matters, your support matters. we still aren’t helpless, this still isn’t out of our hands. 

“you big into chaghan suren?” don’t even joke lad…
          this is something serious. SERIOUS! poppy war fandom stop overlooking him AND his dynamic with rin PLEASE! i’m genuinely going to be sick. my attachment to him has reached an astronomical level. it’s something that i don’t think could ever be articulated sufficiently enough. essays will be written, though. chaghan nation RISE!!!!

ANDOR S2 SPOILERS: “[…] This chamber is a cauldron of opinions and we’ve certainly all had our patience and tempers tested in pursuit of our ideals. Disagree as we might, I am hopeful that those of you who know me will vouch for my credibility in the days to come. I stand this morning with a difficult message. I believe we are in crisis. The distance between what is said and what is known to be true has become an abyss. Of all the things at risk, the loss of an objective reality is perhaps the most dangerous. The death of truth is the ultimate victory of evil. When truth leaves us, when we let it slip away, when it is ripped from our hands, we become vulnerable to the appetite of whatever monster screams the loudest. This Chamber’s hold on the truth was finally lost on the Ghorman Plaza. What took place yesterday… what happened yesterday on Ghorman was unprovoked genocide! Yes! Genocide! And that truth has been exiled from this chamber! And the monster screaming the loudest? The monster we’ve helped create? The monster who will come for us all soon enough is Emperor Palpatine!” 
          
          - dialogue from mon mothma’s senate speech in s2e9. do you truly still believe that the stories we tell don’t hold a mirror up to society? that media can be wholly apolitical? 

i am in dire need of the (primarily) tom riddle + kaz brekker x pim stones agenda to be spread and if it feels like i’m reaching when i say neon lights and we have it all are so tom you’re unfortunately not in the right place, i regret to say. SEE THE VISION! SEE IT! “i’ll follow you down to the river for prayer, and i’ll never never let you know the truth that no one’s there.” feel the kanej realness in the very marrow of your bones. “you still have faith in me, baby, that’s the reason i know (i’ll follow you, i’ll follow you). even though mine was lost very long ago.” tom riddle kaz brekker tether so strong because destroy my desires eradicate my ideals show me something better and i will follow you dostoevsky quote. YEAH! “our hearts we have sold for diamonds and gold, but hey baby, take a look, we have it all.” again, kanej realness. very marrow of your bones. AND BY EXTENSION: “all my life i’ve been heading for hell, but never had i thought i’d drag you down as well. i just couldn’t resist what he was trying to sell. there’s glory ahead, but our love will be forgotten […] but haven’t you heard? hearts turn to dirt, along with the rest of your body. it’s all claimed by the earth.” “hear me. can you hear me? i am calling out to you for the last time.” it is tom riddle’s last, desperate (if i’m allowed to say that lol. #yearnertom) attempt at an apology. a justification. 
          
          i feel very strongly about this. i think i might start shaking. good night 

i’m late by a day, but ramadan mubarak to everyone that celebrates! may this month bring peace, joy, and many blessings. let’s remember to keep the less fortunate in our thoughts and prayers this month, and strive to make a difference through our donations and acts of kindness and solidarity. 
          
          to everyone here, not just fellow muslim followers, here is a link to provide ramadan emergency aid for children and families in need: https://www.launchgood.com/v4/campaign/ramadan_emergency_with_khaled_beydoun?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaZH_0zx5xcl2_N7167gY9ZG0TrXpFsUl7NVAEHztVlHS-PqEOUhz8eaoMw_aem_HhDeznBdqkRjSEfBYGI-0A
          
          please share around and donate if you are able to <3