The sacred loneliness

Unwanted. 
Unloved.
Unlikable 

That's what I felt in the past years.

They don't feel my pain,
They don't know how scared I am.
They don't see my tears.

All that they can see is my 'Smile' 
I'm the shadow of the bubbly girl they saw. I'm everything that she is not.

The unforgettable memories 
The forbidden moment 
The sinful truth 

My Heart is broken .
It hurts so much that I think that my heart is shattered into million pieces.
I'm becoming a masochist 
I'm in pain but I feel nothing 
I became numb to everything in this world.

My body badly wanted to shutdown 
My self wanted redemption 
My heart wanted to feel love
For once I want to be me. 
Am I not a noteworthy? 
I'm invisible, I know.
So let me be. And forever disappear.~