kai

HELLLOOOLOL

IM ALIVE OML YAY

you were with your friends partying when the alcohol kicked in said you wanted me dead so you show up at my home all alone with a shovel and a rose do you think ima joke cause people like you always want back what they can't have but i'm past that and you know that so you should turn back to your rat pack tell em im trash tell all of your friends that im crazy and drive you mad that im sucha stalker a watcher a psychopath and tell them you hate me and dated me just for laughs so why do you call me and tell me you want me back you maniac

i jus need someone in my life to give it structure to handle all the selfish ways i'd spend my time without her you're everything i want but i can't deal with all your lovers you're saying i'm the one but it's your actions that speak louder giving me love when you are down and need another i've gotta get away and let you go i've gotta get over but i love you so i'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind this feeling's old and i know that i made up my mind i hope you feel what i felt when you shattered my soul cause you were cruel and i'm a fool so please let me go but i love you so

and i keep my side of the street clean you wouldn't know what i mean cause karma is my boyfriend karma is a god karma is the breeze in my hair on the weekend karma's a relaxing thought aren't you envious that for you it's not sweet like honey karma is a cat purring in my lap cause it loves me flexing like a goddamn acrobat me and karma vibe like that ask me what i learned from all those years ask me what i earned from all those tears ask me why so many fade but i'm still here

my life is going so great guys (im literally talking to myself im so fucking lonely) liks oh god my exams are coming up for which i am not prepared one bit, great right? moreover my school counselor quit their job and now i have no safe place to vent to (other than here) lol how nice!! ^_^ and you know what's better? my friends have been neglecting meee!!! not replying to my texts, leaving me on seen, avoiding me in real life, posting pictures where i am not included :D (better part: there's more to it) i love it here it's so great like my will to live has become higher and really it's so lovely here 

like there's a life out of this stupid phone but everything is so overwhelming ahh bye not even counselling is helping me wtf do i do? dElete myseLf? big L i am, fucking pathetic 

fucking hell i hate school i hate this bitchass life im having rn like ew wtf am i even doing? crying over people, sleeping for long hours, not even studying. bro i'll never succeed if i continue being like this but wow guess what, nothing is helping and i feel so dang overwhelmed ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

peopleeee ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ going through a break-up right now (it's been three months but YEA) seND HELP

hi guys! kinda back on wattpad. been so long! hru all?