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Hello everyone! I have something really important to tell you and it's that i got suspended from my school because basically i was “BuLLyInG" some so called innocent students Let me tell you what actually happened.In this school like there's always been these two boys and some of there friends and they always bully other students. I was kinda safe from them but this time I was in their class and since I'm a loner, i naturally became their target Now everything was going fine although they used to taunt me, mock me, make me hey punishment from the teachers, i didn't really mind it much but that day they freaking crossed the line, they hid my notebooks for the 4th f*cking time! Like can you imagine making those big ass notes with freaking diagrams on it for the 4th time?! That's it, i snapped not only because they got my notebooks but also because there behaviour had gotten more worse and humiliating. I beat them up knowing that I'll get suspended because the main boy was the principal's brother's son and yes I did Thankfully i got away with only suspension and nothing else. My grandmother knew the principal of the school in which my father studied so she talked to him and I got the admission, the thing is I got admitted to the school in the August when the half August had already passed. Today was my first exam, SST. The syllabus of this school completely different so I had a really hard time trying to learn everything. And just yesterday I mean on Sunday I got the date sheet in the school group, telling that from tomorrow my exams were starting. I got super stressed cuz I didn't know anything, I only knew all the chapters of geo but other three which are Hist, Civics, and Economics I didn't you thing about them. So yesterday I pulled an all nighter learning all the 15 chapters wrecking my brains and thankfully today I passed the exam. When my daily life is on track and I feel like I can write again I'll again started writing stories......

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@myself-nyx it's okay relax don't worry it'll all make sense in some time you are stressed it's understandable don't worry you'll know what to do so right now do what's best for you that is study hard for your finals cause bitter or not the truth is that the indian education is based on these very exams your life depends on them you study for yourself work hard for yourself and continue writing for yourself k??
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@unknown1-2-3-4 umm sorry, i accidentally tagged myself instead of you in my reply earlier
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@myself-nyx they won't be proud of me unnie. Like sometime's i just put it off by thinking that they care for me or something and that's why they are saying this, and I'm not saying that they don't care but when they tell me that I'm wasting my time writing these stories and that they're just a waste of time or that it won't be of any help to me. It hurts so freaking much. Like I'm not spending the whole days writing stories or what. I write them, but i find peace, comfort, and fun in them, they help me cheer up. But now, i can't write anymore, like i can't think of any ideas too confine continue my story. Now as long as my these board exams are not over which will end on March 2nd or 3rd, they will not stop telling me to study this and that i should do this and not that. I know they say this because they care about me but please my head starts hurting at how much they lecture me. They make me feel like, i don't put in any effort and that I'm just lazing around...... I hope this can stop soon, i feel like I'm just worthless. I want to write again, but I don't have time or any ideas. It's just to much for me right now......
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@unknown1-2-3-4 oh, i was studying under CBSE since childhood but since I changed school last year in August i study under PSEB board now..... My leg is fine now and my school at the time didn't provide with online classes after lock down, in fact no other school in the city did either, well most of them were these prestigious schools though......

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@myself-nyx Look there can be two reasons to this. I am not there, I don't know what exactly happened, so, I do not know any of you all personally but here is my opinion. 1. The Negative One - The bsf is an unempathetic witch and never really cared (chances are low because no matter what she is a person but there is still some possibility) 2. The Positive One - The bsf is going through one of the (if not most) shittiest phases of her life. She lost her secret keeper, her comfort place, her best friend and that has struck her a bit too hard to the point she can not process it, so, she is ignoring it, maybe trying to forget about Harash, trying to show that she (Harash) didn't matter to her or something. But that's just what I feel. Look, I have a bsf and just the thought that soon we will have to go our ways drives me crazy so I can't even imagine something so traumatising. Stay away if you have seen her being mean to Harash or ever felt that the bsf was faking it. But, if you felt they genuinely were always great friends, each other's hype person then maybe try approaching her, talk to her, and help her process this.

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@unknown1-2-3-4 Thank you for your opinion as it really helped me in figuring out what to do. I know I might look like an mean person saying this right now, but I am only saying the truth. She and her family basically lack empathy. They didn't even bother to cry when the girls grandmother died because of the abuse she was going through in the family especially from the girl's mother. They all just faked their tears and said how much they loved and cherished her when everyone in the neighborhood and relatives knew just much they "CaReD" for her. I don't think that she's going through any rough time seeing how she's going around celebrating the festivals, going to weddings, playing with other kids now looking unbothered like Harash never existed. I can see the pain in the eyes of harash's mother when she see's other kids playing. Harash had always been an great Student who got A+ on everything. I used to go tution to Harash's uncle and the girl just used to copy her homework from her notebook. I once even heard her saying that she's only using her for academic work. I warned Harash but she never really cared. Growing up in an really strict family who valued academics very much especially her father who served in military and her uncle were really strict. Her uncle once beat his own daughter to near death because she got 98/100. I was shocked. There was blood everywhere, i saw it with my own eyes. Maybe because of limited number of friends Harash thought that she was her only friend. I honestly feel so bad for her. She died so young at the age of 15 years old not being able to enjoy her childhood always being forced to study till late night and now her so called best friend going around playing with others without even shedding an single tear.....
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@lisalilypotter448 wow really? You Must have seen the royal Bengal tigers at least once right? I mean the Sunderbans reserve is in West Bengal and it's popular for its royal Bengal tigers...... Just curious though..... Don't take it seriously.....

myself-nyx
@lisalilypotter448 ah no, I'm from Punjab, and it's okay since you didn't say anything that i should feel offended about......

myself-nyx
@Residentofhell thank you very much girlie, and what you said now it's just so true, like even after i beat him up, when my parents, his family and other kids families came he was still trying to look high and mighty threatening to make me hey suspended from school with bad grades...... Like i don't give a f*ck about you and your threats! You have everything so why are you bothering others? Just mint your own f*cking business man!

myself-nyx
@ghostcather thank you very much!!!

myself-nyx
@Residentofhell thank you for your advice and concerns. Actually, i didn't want to tolerate their bullshits too, but since that boy was the principal's niece, i could do nothing about it. I just hoped to clear my 10th and then go to an college or something like that, but when i snapped i beat those boys so badly that they were almost unconscious. Thankfully i was able to get away because the parents of the other victims also came to my support saying that there children had been bullied by those boys very badly too, and since principal couldn't overlook this matter because the parents threatened to get the police involved cuz some students had suffered very badly, but i still got suspended and that boy and his friends were sent to hospital but they only got suspended for a week before there transfer letter came. I'm just furious, they gave transfer letter to those bullies but couldn't they have given to it to me too? It's so freaking unfair.....

myself-nyx
Hello everyone! I have something really important to tell you and it's that i got suspended from my school because basically i was “BuLLyInG" some so called innocent students Let me tell you what actually happened.In this school like there's always been these two boys and some of there friends and they always bully other students. I was kinda safe from them but this time I was in their class and since I'm a loner, i naturally became their target Now everything was going fine although they used to taunt me, mock me, make me hey punishment from the teachers, i didn't really mind it much but that day they freaking crossed the line, they hid my notebooks for the 4th f*cking time! Like can you imagine making those big ass notes with freaking diagrams on it for the 4th time?! That's it, i snapped not only because they got my notebooks but also because there behaviour had gotten more worse and humiliating. I beat them up knowing that I'll get suspended because the main boy was the principal's brother's son and yes I did Thankfully i got away with only suspension and nothing else. My grandmother knew the principal of the school in which my father studied so she talked to him and I got the admission, the thing is I got admitted to the school in the August when the half August had already passed. Today was my first exam, SST. The syllabus of this school completely different so I had a really hard time trying to learn everything. And just yesterday I mean on Sunday I got the date sheet in the school group, telling that from tomorrow my exams were starting. I got super stressed cuz I didn't know anything, I only knew all the chapters of geo but other three which are Hist, Civics, and Economics I didn't you thing about them. So yesterday I pulled an all nighter learning all the 15 chapters wrecking my brains and thankfully today I passed the exam. When my daily life is on track and I feel like I can write again I'll again started writing stories......

unknown1-2-3-4
@myself-nyx it's okay relax don't worry it'll all make sense in some time you are stressed it's understandable don't worry you'll know what to do so right now do what's best for you that is study hard for your finals cause bitter or not the truth is that the indian education is based on these very exams your life depends on them you study for yourself work hard for yourself and continue writing for yourself k??
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myself-nyx
@unknown1-2-3-4 umm sorry, i accidentally tagged myself instead of you in my reply earlier
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myself-nyx
@myself-nyx they won't be proud of me unnie. Like sometime's i just put it off by thinking that they care for me or something and that's why they are saying this, and I'm not saying that they don't care but when they tell me that I'm wasting my time writing these stories and that they're just a waste of time or that it won't be of any help to me. It hurts so freaking much. Like I'm not spending the whole days writing stories or what. I write them, but i find peace, comfort, and fun in them, they help me cheer up. But now, i can't write anymore, like i can't think of any ideas too confine continue my story. Now as long as my these board exams are not over which will end on March 2nd or 3rd, they will not stop telling me to study this and that i should do this and not that. I know they say this because they care about me but please my head starts hurting at how much they lecture me. They make me feel like, i don't put in any effort and that I'm just lazing around...... I hope this can stop soon, i feel like I'm just worthless. I want to write again, but I don't have time or any ideas. It's just to much for me right now......
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