@mytime55 way back i ran a library in the south of France,English books from a bus. had 2 of them running at one stage, spent most days sitting outside in the sun reading basically whatever had come in,westerns to sci fi to more serious classics, we bought books back and resold them, i even read a few mills and boon . I have always dressed and to be honest in the 60's when i grew up it was so easy,clothes were so mixed , gender was not so constricted i could dress in bright frilly clothes and look hippy not trans or gay, i often got wolf whistled and more... i guess i just had that look ,never had much body hair yet very curly mousy long hair so i was such a girl, so i love now reading what i really feel i missed out on as i never really came out after my first wife sort of outed me . at least threatened it , so now i just have this feeling of deep longing to feel like i have met someone that will make me feel complete even if only on line